Kapitel 1: Mother's poison
How can you lose something you never have?
I was born without love. My mother had been a lowly tea maid who schemed her way into the Marquess' bed. Through one union, she had me and become a loyal lady maid. A greedy women by nature, My mother continue to scheme for a higher status. I was simply the collateral to her scheme.
When your own mother poisons you to gain pity for others, how could you feel?
I was seven when my mother sprinkled white powder into my morning porridge. like an experiment, she started with small dosages, testing to see the limits of my small body. In the begining , there had only been small stomach pains. The more I ate her porridge, the sicker I could get, until I'm bedridden for days. By the time I was ten, My mother upped the dose of the poison because she realised my body had grown accustom to it.
She needed me forever frail and week in order to gain pity from the household-from my father.
No one care enough to find the source to my illness. Instead everyone stay further away-not wanted to catch the disease they believe I have.
My mother is the disease I have.
Mother stop poison me when she finally hat what she wanted-A son. with a son, she finally got the status as the fifth concubine of the Marquess Li. At fifteen, I found peace. Everyone has forgotten my existence, While my mother was too busy protecting her son to remember me. Everyone else focus were on the new baby boy to realise that I no longer sick.
I became a ghost that no one sees.
But it no longer matters as I continue to live in my small courtyard, reading to pass the each day peacefully.