Kapitel 26: I SAID I LOVE YOU BUT I LIED

I saw how pain rushed through her pale face as I've said those words. She then smiled, a vapid one.

"I'm so sorry-y."

"All this time, those I love yous you've said was all a lie. All this time, I've let myself believed in every words you've said. And I hate t-the fact that I let myself fooled-d by you-u in the first place-e."

She's in pain. I want to hug her badly and withdraw the every words I just said to her.

I want to tell her that it's a lie, that I really love her. But I can't be selfish. I just want her to finally set free, away from me and be happy without me.

"I love you." She said, her eyes were swelling with tears and it broke my heart into pieces.

But I didn't utter any words, I did all I can not to broke down in front of her, if that happens she'll find out the secrets I've been trying to hide.

'I love you too.'

"Just set me free, I didn't felt the love we used before. I don't love you anymore." I tried hard not to stutter so I can composed myself, but deep inside me it bleeds.

She wiped her tears with her bare hands.

"If that's what makes you happy. You're free to go, good-d...bye-e."

For the last time, those memories flashes in my mind as the room filled by a beeping sounds.

"Time of death, 12:00 am." It's our anniversary.

And the time, I died as a stage 4 lung cancer patient.