Kapitel 22: Chapter 21 Called it a warning

"I-i.."

"I d-don't know what to do." I told my mother, she rubbed gentle circles on my back and even after that.. I still could not stop crying. Everything was falling apart. I cried more because I had absolutely no one. My mother did not count, this was the bed, I had made and I had to lie on it.

"Mama?" I finally raised my head. She waited for me talk.. "Did you even love father?"

"Honestly..." She looked as if she was in deep thought for some seconds. "Even I, do not know."

I simply nodded.

"Do you love Elliot?" She asked.

I only felt bitterness. "I could never!" I spat.

"I still cannot take that he verily treated you the way he did."

"My life would have never been this way... if you had not accepted that I take the housekeeping job."

I needed someone to blame, I needed that to comfort myself with lies.

My mother did not seem triggered by what I had said. "Just remove it."

"What?!"