Kapitel 108: A Free Atlas

After tossing the already opened condom in the trash, he put his clothes back on and gave me a kiss. I could feel my eyes watering and my throat tighten. My body was shaking with adrenaline ready for a fight to start at any second. I was so used to not being listened to. Now that someone cared how I felt I didn't know what to do. I tried to choke back the tears so I wouldn't bother Alexi. He's done everything right, I just don't know how to handle it.

"... So I'm the best you've ever had?"

"Yeah. I've never felt anything like this," I said after clearing my throat.

"Astra, are you okay?"

Unable to hold my tears back anymore, I stared at the ground trying to will them back into my eyes.

"I don't know."

"Did I do something that made you uncomfortable?"

"No, it's not you. It's me. I just feel really confused, that's all."

"Tell me."