Kapitel 27: What is wrong with me?!!!

#diary of a bitch

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I didn't feel anything at first,then a suddenly felt a thousand emotions,none of them was pleasant,I felt fear;what if she kills me too?,I felt guilt;the whole thing happened because of my existence; I felt betrayed, used,anger,and all other unpleasant emotions I didn't know existed

Me: wait a minute, if Edward is my dad,that means mum.....sorry Susan remarried my real dad,I witnessed their wedding how is that possible

Kelvin: you see love, Susan never got married, that remarriage you're talking about is her first marriage, and they had to wait that long to avoid suspicion

Me: so why did you tell me all this,I'm sure she didn't want me to know

Kelvin: as odd as it might seem,I feel bad about everything that happened,I have my reasons for doing everything I did and you've not been treated fairly so far, and the this is the little I could do to help,cos at the end of the day,you deserve to know the truth and......

I wasn't thinking when I kissed him,I didn't know what came over me,it was supposed to be that of anger but as he returned my kiss and wrapped his strong arms around my tiny waist that familiar feeling came back,that feeling that made me melt by the touch of his arms,he stopped the kiss tho

Kelvin: I'm sorry, I went too far

He was embarrassed and so was I, why the hell did I kiss him in the first place, now I've ignited that spark that's better off dead and buried

He hugged me and said something I didn't expect in the least: "I'm sorry"

I looked up to him,I saw sincerity in his eyes,I saw him trying to stop a tear from falling and at that moment, everything I had against him floated away,even the rape. I forgot everything and kissed him with all the emotions I felt,he kissed back,for minutes it was just kisses and tears and then he guided my hands to his essence,it was as hard as ever,I effortlessly took off whatever the barrier was,I bent low and shoved it into my mouth,I gave that head like it was my last,I didn't mind the choking and all,I played with his balls while taunting his crown with my teeth and tongue, he enjoyed every bit of it,when I couldn't bear his groans of desire anymore, I stood up to give him a kiss,he returned the favor, massaging my boobs so lovingly I called his name with all the passion that kept building,he then turned me over and slid in to my dripping honeypot,I purred as he began to ride slowly,my heart was racing, soon it became faster as our laps slapped each other, he rode me to heights of new paradise with occasional spanks,I screamed in ecstasy as we climaxed together, the feeling was magical,I slept in his arms not regretting whatever I did,I woke up with regrets though,I saw him sleeping peacefully nude,I didn't want to embarrass myself as I quietly stood up to pick my clothes I startled him tho and he rose with that seductive smiles on his face,I smiled faintly back at him and he frowned

Kelvin: what's up,are you okay?

Me:sure,I'm good...how about you

Kelvin: I'm sorry about what just happened

Me:lol,don't be it was all my fault

I put my clothes back on and he did the same, he left the room unlocked but I didn't feel the desire to escape anymore, I only felt stupid, how could I have sex with someone that raped the hell outta my pussy weeks ago?, what in the world is wrong with me?!?I felt weird,did he do something to make me forget everything I've been through and just have fun with him??,cheap is an understatement for what I am

Kelvin came back and was surprised to meet me in the room,but he was pleased though.....he went out to buy food for me,he fed me with care and told me funny jokes that made me loosen up a bit,I stunned him with the question I asked suddenly: "why did you do it?"

Kelvin: do what

Me:why did you rape me?,I wasn't part of the plan was it

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