Kapitel 30: Chapter 30: Live together and Die together
'It's so peaceful from here...'
After the end of the meeting with the higher-ups of the scout corp, they had come back to were they were assigned to protect Eren, Klemens hadn't said a word since.
The moment he arrived to the camp he asked to be given a few hours of freedom from duty, Levi acquiesced reluctantly after knowing why he asked so.
"I need to prepare for the mission" he said, and Levi took it, a good mental state for such a mission was very important, being agitated in such situations could often lead to the death of an excellent soldier.
And so he left, under the uncertain eyes of his best friend and companion since birth.
But a problem soon rose, he had absolutely no idea where to go, so he just decided to take off his corps mantle and leave on horse going in a random direction, leaving himself to the hands of fate.
He rode the horse, emptying his mind, erasing all thoughts from his mind, usually it wasn't a problem as he trained to calm down and think with a cold mind about things.
Emotivity was the enemy of logical thinking after all, and in missions a lack of logic could kill as he was taught from his father all those years ago.
'So short yet so long' he remembered everything he had done all these years, he trained, mostly.
But he hadn't only trained, honestly speaking, he hadn't even trained all that much, others did so much more than him, like Eren with his obsession to kill titans, like Mikasa with her obsession with Eren and protecting him, or even Liesl herself with her obsession with destroying the walls and gaining her freedom, whatever that meant.
They had an objective that made their minds much more focused on how to achieve their dream, he didn't have anything of the like.
He learnt how to fight from his father because of a lost bet, and because of that stupid bet he gave his entire life to fighting in the army since young.
'It's been ten years and that single promise decided my entire life since that day'
He didn't resent Liesl for making that bet, that would be absolutely moronic, they were both children and a single promise didn't really mean much, but he kept to it every single day since then.
He absolutely loathed even the idea of breaking his word and he didn't even know why he was like that, maybe he heard someone talk about it when young, but it had been far too long for him to remember.
At this point waking up early to begin his normal training was a part of his routine, he couldn't feel good without doing his routine, he had grown like that.
'I might die, again'
His mind wandered back to his next mission, the one his moron friend had proposed.
Two people going alone in a titan infested land with no back up, how stupid was that idea?
It was at a level of stupidity that he could barely comprehend, it was at the level that any single error they made would bring to both of their deaths, not only by the normal titans, but with his damned luck he felt that the probability of facing at least one or more of the titan shifters was absolutely high.
'Not only me, but she might die too and at that point, what's the point?'
His horse stopped near a cliff, he was at the top of it, from above he could see a large number of trees from above.
'It's so peaceful from here, if only I could stay here in peace' was his wishful thinking.
But he knew, deep down he knew that he was not made to live the simple life he longed for, a cozy home where he could live his old age with his loved one, maybe a couple of small Klemens' running around, it was unthinkable.
But he thought about it.
He sat down while looking at the horizon, and like that he stayed immobile for different hours, he looked as the trees below moved slowly and how the Sun in the sky moved, from late afternoon to late evening, then to full night.
He looked up, to the stars and thought while filled with wonder at the spectacle 'What's up there?'
Somewhere during these hours he did manage to empty his head from all thoughts about the future, about the ever lingering possibility of death that was pending above his head like a sword, ready to behead him if he made a single mistake at the wrong time.
"It's really beautiful, isn't it Kle?"
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"Where the fuck has he gone..." said out loud to no-one in particular the red haired girl an hour after her best friend had left on horse to go who knows where.
'He seemed weird after we came back, he just took up and left without saying a word, that bastard... Is he angry because of what I did? Because I made him agree to go back to that hell with me?'
The more she thought about it, the more the realization that that could be true made her sink into contemplation.
'But that was the most logical solution! So many people could have died otherwise if we fell into an ambush from one of them'
She tried to rationalize, but the thought of having done something bad and hurt to the person she trusted more than anyone and anything in this world made her feel as if a titan was eating her from inside.
'What is this, I don't like it' she had never felt something like this, regret was not even a word in her dictionary, she was alway a hundred percent sure about her choices, even her instinct told her that this was the best possible solution, so why did she feel like this?!
'Is it because I hurt him somehow?' the realization downed at her.
She fucked up, she had no idea what went through that head of his, but she was now sure that it was her fault, so she had to ask him and then apologize, yes, that was the best solution.
"Captain, I'm leaving to find Klemens" she said to her short superior.
"He's an adult, he doesn't need you, you need to stay here in case something happens" replied the captain without even turning to look at her.
"Yeah, no, I was informing you, not asking you, I'm going to find him and you won't stop me, bye" she said as she sprinted to out of the room and to her horse all the while ignoring the short man who resembled her friend only in the color of their hair and their physical strength who shouted at her to stop.
"Let's go Poppy, let's find the moron" she said to her horse not really expecting an answer.
She didn't know where he had gone and she thought that he didn't really know either, but his horse's, Kei's, footsteps were still well visible on the ground, she just had to follow them.
There were parts were the footsteps were confused as the path intersected with others, but his traces were still fresher.
'I'm such an idiot, I proposed that without even consulting him and then I forced him to come with me, no wonder he's mad' the road was long and she had all the time to think about what he might be feeling at this moment.
'After everything he has done with me all these years, I still force him to do things he doesn't want to, like when we were small and I forced him to train with me, I never grew up, did I?
He must hate me, the crazy idiot obsessed with putting her life at risk to destroy what has protected us for a century, but what can I do? Especially now that we know for certain that there is more outside of here...'
She had never regretted her path, there were moments when she doubted the feasibility of it, but never regret and certainly she wouldn't start now.
But maybe there was a better way to realize it, had she ever even asked him what he wanted to do? If following to potentially their deaths against an enemy too many times stronger than they were was really what he wanted.
She honestly couldn't even remember, but probably the answer would be no, after all, which sane person would want such a thing?
But he never left her, he never gave up on following the promise that he made to her and he never expressed any desire of wanting to give up, no matter the situation he had always been by her side, ready to protect her from any enemy.
'I really need to change'
She felt that she reached the solution, from now on she would always let him in before she took any decision that would affect them both, but first of all, she had to apologize.
She eventually reached a cliff, she could see Kei the horse sitting by Klemens' side as he looked ahead to the forest below.
She hesitated at first, but eventually found good enough words to start the conversation.
"It's really beautiful, isn't it Kle?"
He turned around to look at her with his deep emerald eyes, before a smile started appearing on his face.
"Yeah, I like it here, it's very peaceful"
She once again felt a pang of pain deep inside her 'I Knew he didn't want to fight...'
"Maybe you should stay here, leave the scouts and join the military police, they would take you in with open arms" she said.
She absolutely didn't want him to leave her alone, but if staying and living in peace was what he wanted, his happiness was more important than hers.
But before she could continue her thoughts, the harshest and angriest voice she had heard him make reached her ears.
It wasn't loud, it was the normal volume with which he spoke usually, but the way he said it made the previous times he got angry look like a cute kitten.
"Are you insulting me? If I leave then what have I lived the last ten years for? Am I a joke to you?"
"No! I'm... I'm sorry Kle, I just thought that you wanted to stay in a peaceful place, instead of following me to battle, the stakes are higher and higher, first it was only the world between the walls, now it's a whole unknown world we know nothing about"
He stayed silent for a moment, his gaze softened.
'It seems she thought of me as much as I thought of her, she wants me to follow my wishes, too bad that...'
"...Peace was never an option, the day I started training with you I decided I would go to the end with you, you're the person I love the most in this life.
We live together and we die together"
A warm feeling inundated her heart 'No wonder... But I can't let that slide'
"We will live together and die together only when we are two oldies, after all, when we're together who can beat us?" she chuckled.
He started laughing too "Indeed, indeed, if I were to leave you on your own they would bring me your remains in less than a week"
"Hey, that's not true! I never put myself in danger, I'm not Eren"
"Should I remind you of the titan mountain?" he looked at her skeptically, when does she not put herself at risk?
"There was no danger, it was all perfectly according to plan" she replied shamelessly with a smug grin on her face.
He chuckled and didn't add anything else, he knew she wouldn't recognize his perfectly valid point.
"But I do promise you something" she said as she sat right by his side and resting her head on his shoulder "From now on, before any important decision I'll consult with you, I don't want you to be angry again"
"I wasn't angry for that idiot" he replied.
"Then why? And I'm not an idiot, moron"
"Yes you are, and I was angry because you put yourself at risk again not because you didn't consult me, but I'll take that promise anyway"
She stared at him with a confused look "What do you mean, risk, we'll be together and when we're together we're invincible, even if it's us against the whole world" she said proudly, which caused him to once again laugh.
"I wouldn't have it any other way"
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LordHornZ
LordHornZ Helloo, normally i write the chap first then add the title, but i've been getting ready for this for a few chaps and had the title ready, anyway, leave a comment and all your stones, see ya
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