Kapitel 33: Chapter 31
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Recap of the last scene
Her eyebrows furrowed, seemingly thinking carefully of her answer... She looks pretty even when she's just thinking and looking at nothing. Then her eyes changed, realization morphed on her face then she looked at me intently in the eyes... Her gaze now sends shivers from the base of my feet to the top of my head... And then straight to my heart... It made me hold my breath. And then she opened those soft-looking beautiful lips of hers...
"Yes... I do" she replied while looking at me with a bewildered look.
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ROBIN'S POV
My heart dropped for a second with the knowledge that the woman I loved had just confirmed that she had feelings for another, but before it broke into a million pieces... I saw the way she looked towards me...
Is it possible? I don't want to start hoping, just to end up having it shattered... I don't want to do this but... I have to be sure...
'Edward, I know I'm contradicting what I always asked of you... But do you hear me? Who is it? Can you please tell me?' I asked for confirmation... My heart beating fast and loud. It seemed like my heart was about to burst out of my chest to offer itself up to the person in front of me.
But I was met with silence, I didn't hear any response from the one person who could shed light on the paths I could take in my current situation...
Where the fuck is he when you actually need him!
I knew it was unfair to be feeling mad at him for actually following my advice about his gift and respecting other people's privacy... But shit... I really need it now.
The both of us just sat there looking into each other's eyes, it would have been uncomfortable and weird to just stare at each other, blatantly seeming to analyze and imprint every corner of each other's features to one's mind... But I have to do something right?
With difficulty, I managed to open and move my hands to ask her something.
*so which is it? I asked quite a bit back there...* I asked hesitantly.
Hearing my question, a corner of her lips curved upward, a smirk now gracing it... An eyebrow raised in amusement... Of what, I'm not sure.
She didn't say anything in response, so I continued.
*was Royce's front character your type? His looks? *
No answer
*What is your type then? * I asked, hoping that this time I'll get a clear answer.
I swear I'll even consider adjusting myself to fit the type!
[AN: that's not a good thing to do... Unless it's for your own good like mental health or something 😐]
She gave me a teasing smile, that made my breath hitch.
"Someone who will look at me like I'm their whole world..." she replied, then shifted her gaze to my ear, which I felt like they were on fire right now, no doubt red from blushing too much. "Someone cute" she added with a smug smirk. Like she was reveling in the fact that she could elicit such reactions from me.
Damn this woman and her effect on me! The fact that I don't hate being teased by her kinda annoys me. Uuugh!
I gulped down the feeling of being suffocated by her sheer presence right now, I've never been at the receiving end in this kind of interaction, the one with Kate doesn't count...
*Have you ever fancied someone before? Do you fancy someone now?* I'm kinda dreading the answer to this question, it's kinda hypocritical of me to feel this was when I've litterally hooked up with many women before actually admitting that I loved her.
Her face turned a bit serious but warm... She gave me a pointed look, her lips had a faint warm smile.
"I have... And I do" she replied while her gaze roamed around my face.
Oh, Rob... Please, please, pleeeeeeaaase don't be just playing around with my feelings this time... She's making me start to believe that I actually have a chance...
I just stared at her for a few seconds, but those few seconds felt like years... I was afraid to ask this one question, but I knew I had to...
You can do this Robin!!!
I didn't mind if she saw me doing it, I took a deep breath to calm myself down and give me strength for what was about to be asked.
*do I... Do I know this person?... The person you like... Is sh- ... Is he-... Is the person someone I know?* my hands kept freezing up trying to deliver my questions.
She just looked at me for a while, my heart was beating so loud and hard, that I did not doubt that if the woman in front of me just moved a bit closer, she'd be able to hear it...
"Yes..." is the only reply I got.
Fuck! I should've been more direct! I should've asked who the person was... Fuuuuuudge!!!!!!
She must have seen something in my expression, her eyebrows furrowed in worry, and she held my hands, giving them a light squeeze...
I evaded her gaze by looking down, I don't know what kind of expression I'm making right now, but I don't want to embarrass myself anymore...
So I just nodded and tried to pull my hand free from her hands... I managed to free one, but she still held the other firmly... I could easily pull the other hand free, but I was honestly enjoying her touch too much so I just let her...
I was still looking down, avoiding eye contact... But I suddenly felt her fingers on my chin, lifting it so our eyes could meet.
I don't know if this was how the women I've done this kind of move with felt when I did it to them... But.. Shit... This is kinda Hot.
Her violet eyes were filled with concern... And... An expression that... Oh, fudging fudge... I really wish it was true...
"Hey... What's wrong? Did I say something that upset you?" She asked while studying my expressions.
I didn't want to admit how much of a bottom wuss I was being right now... So I shook my head No.
Her face showed an unbelieving look.
"Don't lie, I thought we were way past lies now... Since I've discovered your PAST dalliances and preferences..." Emphasizing the word PAST, and almost said dalliances with disdain.
It was kinda true, ever since she knew what I did with my free time, where I went when I disappeared at parties, and what the club was... For some reason, I'm not sure if it was intentional or not... She manages to rope me in to go with her somewhere or do something with the group, I've never been left alone long enough to do something or someone for that matter. If I wanted, I could still easily shake her off, and find someone, but I was just happy with the attention she was giving me, regardless of why she was doing it.
But she didn't look at me back then like she looks at me right now... I can hope, right? But it's scary...
I looked back at her... Thinking to myself how much I love this person... How can it be possible to feel this much love for another person... I love her so much I wanna cry... In fact, I can actually feel tears pooling in my eyes right now... It's starting to blur.
Panic was immediately seen on her face, she quickly let go of my hand and chin, both hands now on each side of my face.
"What's wrong! Please don't cry, Oh my God, please, don't cry... Whatever it was I said that made me sad, I am so sorry..." she kept apologizing, wiping a tear that I didn't realize had fallen from my eye...
The way she was holding my face... Caressing it... Like I'm something precious... The way she looks at me like I'm the only one that matters right now... The way she looks at me like she...
Haaaah... I can't even say it mentally to myself... The thought of it just seems surreal to me...
So I just smiled... I gave her a smile that would convey how I felt about her... I held my palms against the back of her hands... Leaned to one side, trying to sink further to her touch...
Then I saw it... Her gaze was roaming around my face... Then She was looking right at me... She seemed like she was holding back something... But then the glint in her eyes changed... Her eyes focused on something... She gulped... Her lips slightly parted... Then she bit her lower lip...
That scene will forever be etched on my mind...
There was no denying it, she was looking at my lips... While biting hers...
This is a go signal, right? I could go for it? I'm not imagining this whole thing up, right?
As she focused on my lips dazedly... I was the same with hers... And like an unknown pull from somewhere, the space between them kept getting smaller... And smaller... Our warm breaths can now be felt by one another...
Violet met pink... I decided not to overthink it anymore and fuck the consequences for no and just go for it... And I could see the same determination in her eyes...
My heart skipped so many beats by now... And I could clearly hear her heartbeat doing the same...
Our faces grew closer... Our lips are about to touch...
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^knock knock knock^
The moment was broken, lost. We were both brought back from our daze. And immediately parted, sitting a bit away from each other, but still a bit closer than we initially were... Face flushed...
^door opening^
"Sweetie, I brought the snack and refreshments... Rosalie, I made your favorite tea to match it. I also packed some of the sweets, so you can bring them home to your family later. " My sweet sweet mother entered with the trolley carrying the said items.
Now... I love my mother dearly... I could even say she's my favorite person in the family... I would never ever turn down a chance to be with and bond with my mother... Her presence has always been and will always be welcome... But fudge... Sweet mother of fudge... Waaaaaaaaaaaaah!
My mother, now finally getting a clear look at our state from where she was, which was standing beside the table where she put down the snacks, refreshments, and a box of treats... Looked at us suspiciously at first...
With my eyes that looked like I cried, and Rosalie who seemed uncomfortable and guilty... Bot of us with very flushed faces... Our heartbeat still has not calmed down...
I saw it, it dawned on her... That she might have disrupted us from something very important... She sent me an apologetic look...
"Uhhh... I- I should go back to my... Uh... cleaning? Yes! Cleaning! I should go back to cleaning the mess in the music room... You should go back to whatever it was you were doing... Don't mind me! I'm sorry for interrupting! Bye," she frantically said and if she did not have to pretend to be human in Rosalie's presence, I bet my ass that she would be using her vampire-enhanced speed of hers to run away from us.
As the door closed, silence again was prominent inside the room... It was only the two of us again, but the moment was already lost... We were both looking at the door where my mother escaped.
Then I heard a laugh coming from my side... I looked to check the source of the beautiful sound, and she looked more beautiful... M and for some reason, free...
"Your mother is something... So cute, now I know where you got it from" She commented while still chuckling.
She grabbed the teacup to take a sip, then a biscuit... I do the same... A smile never leaving our lips, sending glances towards each other.
And I can't remember when and how it happened, but I realized that while we snacked... We were already holding hands... Sometimes her thumb will caress mine... And sometimes mine would caress hers...
We didn't say anything else and just sat there together in silence... Smiling... Glancing at each other... And holding hands...
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AN: Owkie, this was waaaaaaaa! My heart... Fuuuuuuuuh..... Kkkkkkkk.... Mmmmm...
Shit.
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