Kapitel 11: Road Trip, II

"Elia--!"

"Ru- awa-y now!"

"My dea- s-n"

Muffled, darkness, a female voice screaming, telling me to run away. What is going on, why am I running? Wait, running? Am I running right now? Why are my hands moving?

What's going on right now!? I need to know! But who even am I? Why am I crying right now? Am I even crying? It's dark I can't see well and it's blurry, could it be because of the tears?

Huh, why am I looking at the sky right now, did I fall? Yeah, even though it's muffled and not understandable to me, I can feel some pain in my leg. Did I trip on a branch?

"Ahh… Mom, why…?"

A sound, a voice, a child's wailing voice was heard. Whose voice is this, is it my voice? Why am I alone here?

Is it just me and you here, Moon?

Are you the only one trying to console me in this lonely environment for me?

Is this an environment?

I can still hear the child wailing. Or am I crying and wailing with snot coming out of my nose and tears out of my eyes?

Is anyone to tell me?

Is there Anyone?!

Someone, please?

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I gasped, bolting up "hah, hah… W-what was that?!" I was breathing heavily and sweating a lot when I woke up from that dream… Or was it a nightmare?

What was that? I asked the question myself once more. I started wondering… Who was that child?

"I can't remember it well," I said as I tried to calm down my racing heart which still was going out of control.

Concentrate, control your breathing! I started inhaling and exhaling through my nose.

"Huh, where am I?" I said that as I looked around the room.

"The Moon?"

The nightmare that I just had, of course, was almost forgotten and not to mention the feeling that it was muffled from the beginning.

But that thing! I looked at the object floating in the dark sky shining in my room with its magical luminescent light.

"You, why can I remember you? Why can I still hear the cries of that miserable child? How are you… What are you trying to tell me!?" I asked that as I noticed that my chest was getting tight and my throat parched for water.

Why am I feeling angry? I thought to myself.

"Huh?" I got confused as my sight blurred.

Am I crying?

Am I really crying?

I am crying.

Why is it that I am crying?

The moon?

Was it because I saw the moon?

But what could the moon do to make me cry?

What is this feeling?

Is it the longing for someone?

Am I crying because I miss someone?

Who am I missing?

I am not longing for anyone!

It was the child's longing!

But who was he longing for?

I don't remember!

I need to remember!

I sniffed my running nose, "Ahaha, why? Why for? Ahh, why did she leave me?" I said that in a quiet tone as the tears came overflowing. I covered my face with both hands. But who was it that I talked about in those moments?

I started to feel lucid, surreal again. I was crying and sniffing like a lost child crying for its parent…

I kept crying and crying without a single valid reason, which made me look pathetic…

"Huh?" My breath left me as I noticed a hand pulling my head close to their body. It was soft. It was a woman's body.

"Seren?" I called out the name of the only woman in my heart. I then heard her soft and soothing voice that calms my very soul.

"It's alright Elias. It is alright to cry, so you can cry now. I am here with you."

"It must've been hard on you… Coming all the way here to us, all alone…"

But this time it was different. I don't know why but water overtook my eyes even more powerfully than the first time. I couldn't stop it, instinctually I also held her body.

For a short time, a pathetic side of mine was shown in front of the girl I like as she consoled me.