Kapitel 184: Flooding back

"Prosypaysya (Wake up)" came Ivanka's delicate soft voice from the tape recorder as the track ended.

Natasha's eyes were droppy as she opened them and he looked around, wondering where she was??

She realized that she was still in her parent's bedroom, and she looked at her hand and she was holding the tape recorder.

"What…what happened??" asked Natasha to herself as she was still dozing, had she slept off? And why did she doze of then?? While standing for that matter??

"Ugh" said Natasha as she suddenly felt a horrible headache as she touched her head, just what happened??

"I was here… and then I dozed off?" asked Natasha in disbelief, just what was wrong with her??

In the same moment, Natasha's head hurt, as she held it with her free hand, it was as if her head was about to explode, she had never felt such a horrible headache before, in this life and her last one, it was as if her brain was trying to remember something.

"Ouch" said Natasha as she the pain slowly subsided as she got hold of herself, it was like her memories were flooding back, but not her usual memories, not her childhood ones that she loved so much, but it was like these memories were once hidden, but now they were unhidden?? This just made no sense to her at all.

In the midst of her memories, she remembered seeing this tall man… yes he was tall, he had brown hair and brown eyes, as he looked very cold, Natasha opened her eyes as she was feeling more confused by the second, just what was going on?? What was going on with her life? Her family, and now her memories as well.

"Who is that man?" asked Natasha to herself as she calmed down and she took a deep breath.

"I know him... Yes… I know him?" asked Natasha to herself as she was trying to reassure herself.

"But I don't know him" said Natasha as she could not remember ever seeing the man in her memories in real life.

"Ugh" said Natasha as she groaned, she was going insane, just what was all of this??

Natasha sighed as she looked down at her hand that was still holding the tape recorder, then it hit her, she had heard her mother's voice saying some word that she could not remember, and after that she dozed off, or entered into some sort of trance.

Natasha looked at the tape recorder as she saw that there was one last track there, curious to see if what would happen if she heard this track.

Natasha pressed the play button as she let the track play and her mother's soft voice played from the tape recorder once again.

"Moy devochka (My girl)" came Ivanka's soft voice.

"I am so sorry for lying to you" she said.

"I did not mean to lie, but I had no other choice" said Ivanka.

"Please don't be angry with your father, I asked him not to tell you… for your own safety" she said.

"Believe me when I say that everything I did, and everything hid, was for your own good" said Ivanka.

"Please don't be angry with me" said Ivanka.

"My girl, when you find him, he will be able to help you… so just don't be scared of him" said Ivanka as she smiled.

"I love you" said Ivanka as the track stopped playing and Natasha looked at the tape recorder, those were all the tracks there, only three??

Natasha scoffed, so her life was technically a lie, not a conventional one, but it was still a lie, she was lied to about her origins, and the origins of her mother and father, now it made sense why her father would always dodge the topic of how he and her mother met whenever he asked her, he would sigh for a long time, and then he would tell her that her mother loved her very much, and then her father would let out some tears.

Natasha never liked her father crying, so as she grew up, she learnt not to touch the subject of her mother, to her at that time, her father was all she needed, and she loved him dearly, but since his death, it would seem that many untold secrets were coming out.

"I cannot hate you mom, or you either dad" said Natasha as she sighed and she closed her eyes, the question on her mind was why was she finding all this out now?? In her last life she did not even know any of this, and she was sure that if she had known, she would not have paid any attention to is, since all her attention was on Dom, she really was a crazy woman.

"But who is he?" asked Natasha as she could not understand, just who was her mother talking about?? She could not remember the strange man's name, no matter how much she tried.

"What is his name…" said Natasha to herself.

"Did he… did he kill my father?" asked Natasha as her eyes went wide, if that was true, then she was not safe at all.

Natasha did not know what made her walk to her mother's closet as she removed all the clothes that were folded there, and as she did so, she happened to make a bunch of papers fall down to the ground as she bent down to pick them up.

They were all postcards, from different addresses, and it made Natasha even more confused, she and her father had never been to any of these places, and she was sure that her parents had never gone to these places before.

"What is this?" asked Natasha to herself as in the midst of all those signed postcards, a little picture caught her eyes, her brows furrowed as she looked at the picture, it wasn't any of her parents, and that was the man she remembered from her memories this was the man.

The only thought on Natasha's mind was that she needed to find this man, someway somehow.

…

"Young Master, the Madam is not home" said Alfred as he was talking to Dom on the phone as he was in his office.

"Then where is she?" asked Dom.

"She told me that she was going to the Estate, she should be with the master" said Alfred.

"Oh, alright then" said Dom as he wondered why she went to the estate.

"Did you give her the envelope that I asked you to give her?" asked Dom.

"Yes I did Young Master" said Alfred.

"How is she?" asked Dom.

"It's hard to tell Young Master, but she seems fine" said Alfred.

"Alright then Alfred, thank you" said Dom as he flipped through a book on his desk.

"Young Master, are you coming home for dinner tonight?" asked Alfred.

"Ahh, No Alfred, I will not, I have a business dinner tonight, so I should be back home late" said Dom as he rubbed his eyes.

"Alright young Master, take care" said Alfred as he smiled.

"I will see you when I drop Joy off at home" said Dom as Alfred smiled and he ended the call.

Dom sighed, since Natasha said that she did not want to see him, then he would grant her, her wish, it was the truth after all, what were they?? Friends? Husband and wife? Enemies, even Dom himself did not know for sure at this point.

But what he did know was that he was tired of Natasha's attitude, her coldness was even worse than her obsession, and that was saying something, because he knew just how much he wished for her to go away in the past, but now, he could not wish for that, he felt like she was hiding something, he could see it in her eyes, the hurt that she was so desperately trying to hide.

He did not know if it was all his actions that caused her to be that hurt, and if it was, he felt guilty, he did not mean to make her so hurt, he only wanted for her to think of herself and leave him alone.

"Why did we end up like this Natasha?" asked Dom to himself as he sighed, they used to be so close, they used to tell each other everything, they were closer than brother and sister, but everything was ruined that one faithful day.

"Don't remind yourself Dom" said Dom to himself as he shook his head, he had much more important work to do than relive the moment his heart shattered.

"Bring me the renovation documents" said Dom as he pressed the red button on the intercom.

"Right away Sir" came the Secretary's voice as Dom stopped pressing the button, he needed to drown himself in work, that's what he had been doing for years now, it would be better for him to just leave Natasha he, yes, he would just leave her alone forever.