Kapitel 26: CHAPTER TWENTY SIX

- HAZEL -

I still can't sleep. This time, it's not insomnia or thoughts keeping me awake, nor is it the noise from the tv. I sigh, well, it partially is. Just knowing he'd rather stay up all night than join me crushes my soul.

I'm not asking for anything intimate, even if I want that, just a hug will do. I sigh and rolled to the side, clutching my hands under my pillow.

Although it's so tempting to want more. It's so tempting to be self centered just this once.

My body folded and I wrapped my arms around each other. It's cold. His windows are open and I think he likes it this way, despite the curtains being pulled shut. I ran my eyes around his bedside. There's no clock or anything here and I'm not with my phone so I don't know what the time is, but I won't be surprised if it's a few minutes to five am. I am so fatigued but unlike before, I'm self cautious. Am I that bad to share a bed with? Or is this just his way of avoiding me?