Kapitel 123: Present
So, do you want to accept it?
Shinichi looked at Miku, who kept her posture unchanged and trembled slightly after handing over her bag.
He wasn't used to receiving presents.
From the past until now, be it his own birthday or any other holiday, except for his parents' birthday cake, he had never received anything that could be called a present.
After all, it takes courage to accept what other people give him.
Especially from Shinichi's point of view, he does things for a reason, not for a result, and he doesn't care if his efforts are rewarded. He will be happy if he gets good results, and he will be happy if he gets bad results. Results are not something to be forced.
However, when someone was kind to him and repaid him, he couldn't allow himself to be ungrateful and enjoy the kindness of others in vain.
Shinichi will try his best to achieve whatever reason he has given himself.
Simply put, when he receives a present, he must think about returning it. If the other party was an existence that wasn't willing to give anything away, he had to resolutely refuse, no matter what the value of the present was.
Shinichi thought so, and instinctively wanted to reject Miku's kindness. He didn't lack clothes, and he didn't want to pay anything for a piece of clothing.
For him, this "deal" was completely unnecessary.
However, in a calm state, Shinichi's thoughts will always be one step ahead of words and deeds.
Receiving presents takes courage, but giving presents requires awareness, awareness of rejection.
Miku...
And why would she risk being rejected to make a present for himself?
Moving his finger, Shinichi lowered his eyes, his expression slowly fading.
Excluding the possibility of indulging himself, he probably knew the reason, and he found out in the labyrinth garden that day.
At this time, Miku frankly expressed her affection in this way. Perhaps this was the best effort she could make.
The reason for wanting to give is not a whim, but something deeper, gentler and purer.
Yes, Shinichi felt it.
Shinichi slowly raised his eyes, looking at Miku who still lowered her head.
(...Miku, I actually don't suit black at all.)
Shinichi is just a shaken coward who doesn't dare to admit it.
He is not mature enough to assume the responsibility that is called "love".
It is absolutely not allowed to fall in love with anyone.
It is absolutely not allowed to refuse anyone.
It is absolutely not allowed to hurt anyone.
Absolutely must not accept this easily shaken emotion in his heart.
If he didn't even have this awareness, he wouldn't be able to raise a hand, and he wouldn't be able to hug anyone.
So...
Shinichi spoke calmly.
"Thank you for your kindness, but I'm not used to wearing other people's clothes."
"So, sorry, I can't accept this present."
And that distant, polite voice instantly tore Miku's hopes to shreds.
There is silence all around.
Miku's body suddenly stopped shaking, and was no longer stiff.
Maintaining a reaching motion, Miku stared blankly at the ground.
No, not just a heartbeat...
She asked herself, her lips slightly parted, but she couldn't even make a sound.
This empty feeling, is the heart gone?
It was definitely not a confession, it was just a piece of clothing, why did she feel so disappointed when she was rejected.
Don't know...
Just like the feeling of wishing Shinichi to accept her present, and wishing him to take good care of it, Miku didn't even know what feeling after being rejected was...
"It doesn't matter." Miku said weakly.
"Then I will give these clothes to my father. You two have a similar figure, so he can wear it too?"
"Shinichi continues to choose the cup, don't worry about my words, white also suits you very well." Miku smiled to be more relaxed and natural.
She couldn't be sad.
Because Shinichi was looking at her now.
Just keep the sadness to herself, and give him a smile.
Pulling her hand and hugging the bag to her chest, Miku lifted her face and smiled gently at Shinichi.
Shinichi was met with gazes looking straight at her, but he didn't feel like he was being watched.
Miku's eyes focused on his face, but she seemed to be looking off into the distance, her eyes misty like water mist.
As a result, Shinichi insists that he has once again hurt others with his words.
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