Kapitel 30: [ Chapter I (1): "What Do You Think?" ]
[ Chapter I (1): "What Do You Think?" ]
[ Volume I: "Short Stories." ]
On February 1, 2006 Felix was first every thought of for the first time, as two simple bars on a pregnancy test.
A couple of weeks later through the use of technology he have been identified as an Boy. Felix, isn't Felix yet but he is slowly taking shape.
On the 16th day of April the image of Felix inside his mother's womb have finally been seen for the first time. His family, especially his mother thought of him as adorable.
Four months later, on the 2nd day of August he've been seen without the use of technology, and have been held by his mother for the first time.
Felix a few minutes later after a few crying sessions have finally been named Felix, Felix Harvey Harp. Taking on the first name of his grandfather, and the last name of his mother.
On January 4, 2010 he have been finally conceptualized as an Friend, by someone else other than his family.
Alex, the first friend heave made asked him if he likes Transformers, of course Felix said yes, even though he don't know what Transformers is.
So for a few days after that he would visit Alex's house, a few kilometers near his house and they would watch Transformers; movies, and cartoons alike.
He don't like it though, he don't even like toys, cartoons, and anything like that. He likes reading, he likes sleeping, but, he thoughts at least my friend is enjoying. So he stayed and watched.
On October 17, 2012 a few of his classmates saw him reading On Writing A Memoir Of The Craft by Stephen King, by himself on one of the many places inside the school.
And for the first time they laughed at him, thought of him as an nerd, called him stupid, and funny names that Felix had never heard until now. So, in fear of judgement he stopped reading in school.
On July 28, 2018 he wrote an story, an what if scenario about an apocalyptic landscape filled with zombies, ghouls, and monsters alike in under 2000 words.
And for the first time he showed it to one of his many friends, Janine, Felix excited, and jittery waited for an day for her response.
A day later in school she replied in an disapproving manner, not liking this, not liking that, suggesting this, and suggesting that.
So, for the first time in ever Felix tried to change his story to fit more on her taste. He don't like that process of course, but he obliged to her taste.
On March 14, 2026 Felix for the first time have been recognized by someone to be an lover. He've obliged with whatever his partner wants, not wanting to hurt, or cause his partner any discomfort.
A few months later they broke up, with Felix for the first time being recognized as an former lover of someone, an ex.
On June 27, 2029 fresh off from college Felix for the first time have been recognized as an worker; an lawyer. Far from the dream he had when he was but a small child, to be an writer. But hey, at least it pays well.
A few weeks, months, and even years heave been recognized as an senior, boss, and as an husband. Fearing for not being known as anything other than nothing, he'd continue with his work, being promoted to be one of the most important at the law firm he works at.
On November 23, 2033 for the first time in ever via two lines in an pregnancy test he've been recognized as an father, a provider, and as an protector.
A few months later with hardwork through the company he works at, and to his family, to his wife who's about to go on in an labor.
With a few hours later of pacing back and forth heave for the first time hold his son's body for the first time, amidst the crying of his, and his wife.
On December 25, 2045 Felix, for the first time since forever could be seen smiling, doing the things he love, and ever being present with his family's life.
Far different from the usual cold, controlled, and detached Felix who his family, friends, and community knew for a long time. For the first time since forever, he, Felix lived life how he wants it to.
Writing an Book that he really wants, I mean, it wasn't best seller material, but it was the story of his life. With the story detailing the ups, and the downs of his life, and how he is currently diagnosed with cancer.
A month back he have been told by his doctor, a close friend of his that he only has at most 3 years left to live. So rather than cry, and feel other emotions; for the first time he'd decided to live life as he wanted.
On May 3, 2048 for the first time he'd been recognized as dead. After an fulfilled 3 years with him doing good, being present to his family, and community, being an author, being an charity donor, after doing things he'd wanted to do since forever he'd finally rested.
Family, friends, close business associate and other such individuals throughout his life have been present to his funeral; some wants to leave early, some wants to not be there entirely, Felix couldn't tell, he was dead.
On June 1, 2066 for the first time he've been recognized as an grandfather via his granddaughter. Harvey, and his daughter, Felix's granddaughter are looking at old pictures.
When Anne beibg just 6 years old saw an picture of an old man, not too old, but not too young either. Curiously she asked her father who the person in the picture is.
With sadness in his eyes, Harvey tried his best to be positive, and answer her daughter's question. "That's grandpa, can you say grandpa?"
"Oh! Hyi gwampa." Anne waves at the picture of his grandfather, at Felix before they continue to look at other pictures. With Harvey deciding to tell Anne more of about her grandfather.
September 30, 2249 Felix have been recognized by someone else, by someone named Felix coincidentally for the last time; as Felix, this worker/student version been told by his boss to delete all unnecessary files which are older than 150 years.
This includes Felix Harp. The young Felix looks at the files he was about to delete, he wasn't looking at anyone specifically only just scrolling through the computer the company owns.
He works for an company which works similar to ancestry.com, this company he works at shows lineage dating far back to the 2000, which was 249 years ago for them.
He stops to look at an image of an white haired old man, not too old, but not too young either; the face of the man was smiling, seemingly living an fulfilled life. He looks at it for a few seconds, recognizing the similarities in name they have before he scrolls down.
A few minutes later after finally being contended with what he saw, Felix, he finally deleted all the data's which are older than 150 years old. Feeling a little bit bad as he does, not the good kind of bad, the bad-bad type of bad.
So disgruntled, and sad Felix walked home feeling a little bit anxious with the concept paper defense he, and his group mates have to do for tomorrow's class.
About to go to sleep he looks at his ceiling and thought to the many faces he saw earlier, at the old datas he'd deleted. Felix thought to himself, not talking about anyone specifically.
"What would they have done, if they knew that the end was near? Would they have enjoyed life, like the way it was intended. Or still do the things they'd done." Felix don't know the answer to that, but at the very least it made him relaxed.
Worry a little bit more as he realize that everyone is gonna die someday, that sounds weird, but, yeah. Everyone's gonna die someday, and we should at least enjoy life before we all run out of it.
"Life's limited, and we should cherish it." Felix thoughts to himself before finally succumbing to sleep, he isn't dead yet, but he's about to worry less about everything hence this day forth.
[ "Amor Fati." ]
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