Kapitel 47: Chapter 46

'All my life I've been a fool, believing every word they said not knowing they were used to force me down. I gave up everything, hoping I would get what I deserved someday. But to think I've made the worst decision in my entire life. The people I gave my very trust, betrayed me. Turned me down and tossed me like trash. Broken and shattered, I gathered all my courage to crawl for help to the people I betrayed. They also did the same. Who can blame them anyway? I did it to them first. But the vengeful hatred I felt for those who treated me this way has never faded. Each time I see them it gives me the desire for revenge, like a demon. But seeing myself in that situation makes me feel humiliated. I felt like I'd lost my morals, dignity, and humanity. Thinking back to how I used to be so desperate while everyone was mocking me makes me want to go wild. I've known it was too late, but I tried and tried to pick back up the pieces, ignoring the bleeding. So desperate to even reach something illusory. Grasping the only twinkling hope I had to lose my life and taking the very last thing they needed to make their dream happen. To my surprise, I ended up back in my own room, eight years ago. Just before the impending doom for me happened. I thanked the Lord for giving me another chance to renew my mistakes. I've never thought of being back in time to give them their own medicine. Thinking to myself, I've learned one thing. If I have been granted another life back in the same timeline, I will make sure to make it worthwhile and ease the burning hatred deep inside my heart. But as luck would have told me. The events have turned upside down. Back then, Shannon was jealous, selfish, and vicious kind. After stealing Edmund, she made war against Vidia and made her own world. She was smart, I admit. But this time, she's the one who needs help. I was just planning to get her out of the game for a while and deal with those two bastards. But instead, the mysteries I have been looking for was not the same figure I was picturing in my head.'