Kapitel 32: A Beautiful Misunderstanding

I punch the dude out of the fighting arena with one punch and get Rank 1 in Fisherman position and pass the test. This was so boring and easy.

Shishou also took Rank 1 in Scout position an hour before me. Though it was mainly because her test started before me.

Currently Shishou and I are on the 10th Floor and are finishing up the test for Position rankings. Only the top 10% among the participants are supposed to pass this floor. The test happens every month. It is done in the form of a tournament.

Honestly I couldn't care less about this stupid test, since there are much more important things on my mind.

It's been 20 days since I visited Freya and nothing much of importance has happened since in my life. Sure there have been some important events in some of the chat group members' lives but not in mine.

Of course what else do you expect from a master procrastinator? Yes I am a procrastinator if you didn't know that. And I procrastinate on important things to me like romance for example. Honestly Chapter 1 should have given you the hint.

There is the fact that I reached level 100 in Master Spearmanship due to my old memories, but let's just sweep that under the rug. I could probably reach the same level in Swordsmanship in a shorter period of time due to those same memories but nobody cares.

While I feel that Shishou might have similar feelings towards me, it's not 100% confirmed. After all Freya could be wrong too.

And losing the current relationship for something that might or might not happen is something I don't like to do. Hence I am procrastinating and thinking about the consequences of my hypothetical actions and so on.

Sometimes I just feel like I think too much. But there's the saying that time waits for no one, and I feel like for once in my life maybe I should just take a leap of faith.

But when the moment comes for the leap, I just shut up.

Maybe it's the trauma I have from this life in school that's affecting me.

And the main reason is that that's the only time in all of lives that I have ever asked a girl out. I guess that says something about myself too.

I suppose only time will tell what I will do or accomplish.

Honestly I'm being a wuss aren't I? Well whatever.

I meet up with Shishou in the lounge that was given to us. She is on the chat group, chatting about who knows what with whom.

All this mental rambling is because my mental state is exactly this. So disorganized.

To be honest with you, I am disappointed in myself for this. When I came back from that world, I was so confident but when I thought about how to do it my confidence left me in a second.

To distract myself from my stupid thoughts, I start meditating and start circulating Shinsu Heart technique. At least working on this will result in something productive.

So the day ends like this and we are notified that we can ascend to the next floor tomorrow by the test supervisors through a message on our pockets.

Oh yeah I definitely connected chat group with my pocket too now since my Synchronization was high enough. And now it's quite overpowered in terms of utility.

And so just like that another day passes with me coming one step closer to touching the Law of Procrastination.

Currently on 11th Floor and it's a freaking collection of islands on a giant sea filled with Shineuh. Our test given by the Administrator of this floor is to get rid of some poachers that are overhunting some rare Shineuh.

"What's on your mind lately?" Shishou asks me on our way to the hideout of the poachers.

"Nothing." I say while focusing ahead not looking her in the eyes since I never was a good liar and people can see easily see through you when you look eye to eye.

"What do you mean nothing? You have been acting weird ever since you came back from her world." So she noticed, well of course she did. I'm not that talented to hide something like this from her after all. Or maybe I subconsciously didn't hide it? "At first I thought it was because of something that happened there. But now I feel like it is related to me."

I just look at her with a raised eyebrow in response.

"Look if you want me to leave so that your lover could rest easy, I understand. I'll leave after this test then." She says with a convinced expression like her remaining here with me is the problem that's making me uncomfortable or something.

Wow, what a logical fucking conclusion!

I guess the way I acted was something that can be misconstrued like that.

My life really is becoming a romantic comedy, where the only people that laugh are the ones that are laughing at my expense.

Anyway gotta reply to her fast and take that leap before she pushes herself away because of some silly misunderstandings. There's no way I am going to act like those rom-com protagonists.

"*sigh* No Shishou you got it all wrong. I have no problem with you staying with me, actually I feel that it's better that way. At least that way I won't be alone during my climb." I first clear up that misunderstanding.

"So then what is the problem?"

Oh shit! Now what should I do?

Should I really tell the truth?

Damn it! Didn't I just a few seconds ago decide to take that leap?

Just do it! Execute Order 69 and conquer that woman!

Wow my brain sure goes in weird directions when I panic.

"The problem is here." I say while pointing to my heart.

Wow mouth that was so cringe. You could do better than that!

Shishou stops in mid air at that and I do the same.

She then touches my chest for a few times and then says, "There doesn't seem to be anything wrong with your body."

Of course that probably resulted in my face turning red from shame. No idea if that's true or not.

Okay then let's take deep breaths. In. Out. In. Out.

Here we go!

"The problem is that I have developed feelings for you Shishou." I just blurt out and then sped away towards the hideout of the poachers leaving a stunned Shishou behind.

Yeah I think that's for the best.

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I don't know what I was thinking when I was writing this chapter. The times I felt genuine cringe was almost every line during the second part.

Anyway I guess we flesh out more of main character this chapter in terms of romance and how he is not that good at handling it. The chapter is short because I didn't want to write more stuff like I wrote this chapter.

There were no chapters for the last few days because healthwise I wasn't feeling good. And also because I kinda didn't want to write a chapter. Anyway see you later on the next chapter, where hopefully something relevant happens.