Kapitel 17: Loving You

With every single miss call I gave I cried like a child, I was hurt, I was near broken, I just needed to talk, I needed to be heard, I felt helpless, for a moment I was lonely, I don't know about this pain it feels new and I needed to talk to one that would see familiarities in my pain that can look me and say I see you and i get, but she never picked up, did not bother to return my messages, the next day pass by, gradually until two weeks later, when I say her messages like a bomb shell on my phone, blowing me up like there's more to the conversation than meet the eye using the same time to give me countless miss calls, so I decided to hear her out, and it goes that our night of hot romance, and wildness someone saw us and reported to Bob who in turn went in to report her to her pastor and mother in the lord, telling me she strongly knows it was Eva because she told no one else, saying I wouldn't be able to call her any more as the pastor says I have some kind of Delilah spirit that is hindering the happiness of her home, and I am the first destructive test to hell, and as she just turned into one and true one of the holy God she can't afford to keep committing such act with me, and that it's not fair on me and her because she doesn't know how she still manage to sound strong while saying those words, saying she prays I find a quick pace to heal with ease but she doesn't want to lose Bob because she's carrying another of his child, i was dumbfounded, and felt rejected, i couldn't make up any word all i could do was cry and hung up the phone, my mom came in right after me asking me what's the bitter occasion, me wanting to be left alone so bad in return told her my friends had accident, after her serious prayer of quick recovery and condolences she left me alone to myself as I wanted and I was splurged in the peak of destruction, it was so painful I felt like a huge car was crushing down my heart, but I did not call i did not beg, I acted cool, when I got back to abuja, I avoided her like an infection, i wouldn't even go to see my friend who lives like 10street away, so I don't have to see her, I told myself I couldn't handle even going to her neighborhood, but when I needed pot so bad on a certain day and couldn't get because I was penniless, my bestie came in to tell me she's going to vist a departmental mate that smokes, and I asked her if she was sure countless times just to be sure, the bitch almost rip off my head when we got to the location and i looked as though I could shoot her to death, she told me then that how could I get over it if I can't even afford to endure her presence, and that besides we won't even get close to her house, we got to her  compound and as I was about to enter a building where I clearly knew Eva stays at before I left for travel, and I was curious enough to want her explaining why me and her friend's relationship has given her headache enough for her to snitch up on us, so i desperately pray she was home, i was jerked out of my thoughts by the scream of my name and a sudden hug on my body and it turns out to be little Sam, I was so happy to see him and he was busy asking why I did not see him or mama or Dada which is how he calls his parent, i told him I was coming and he should greet anyone home for me with tears threatening to drop down my cheeks, I quickly drop him and ushered him back inside the house while I entered my initial location with purple hibiscus novel, a very nice captivating story.