Kapitel 82: Rackie's New Journey

"Are you for real? You knew that we made a promise to get married and we even go to the lawyer to make that promise official. Rackie, we have a contract! Now, you are telling me that you'll just pay for whatever you must pay so you could not get married? What's wrong with you?" Master said. I can hear the pain in his voice. I can see that he is hurt. Nevertheless, that won't make me take back what I said.

"Master, I am just doing this so you could be happy," I replied bitterly. Yes, I am doing this for him to be happy. I don't want to shackle him with this marriage since I don't want to oblige him to marry me just to be responsible for our twins. I will never want that if he needs to be free, I can do that one more time like how I set Red free. I do not want to feel betrayed again and I will not allow it, not within the marriage.

"Happy?" he asked in disbelief. "Abstract, you want me to be happy? However, why are you hurting me right now? Yes, I know… I am aware that you do not love me the way I love you. Why do you keep on doing this to me just so you could break free from me? What have I done wrong this time?"

"You didn't do anything wro—"

"I see… okay, my mom came to tell you something that sets you off. I'll tell you this, you won't need to care about whatever she told you because whether she likes it or not, I am going to marry you and no one else."

"It's not your mom… it's just that I don't want to bind you to a marriage that love is just one-sided."

"It's fine with me, I don't care. You knew very well that I am happy whenever I am with you."

"Don't put your happiness on me. Don't depend on your happiness when I am around." I said.

"You are the one who told me that when I have to beg, I don't need to look pitiful, I don't need to kneel and cry in front of you, right? I am begging you right now by following what you have taught me. Now, what do you want me to do? I am so desperate that I am holding my tears back and trying to make myself not kneel and never look pitiful in front of you but I don't know what to do anymore, Abstract, tell me. at least tell me what to do so I can spend the rest of my life with you that the law of the world and through the eyes of God approves. That I can tell the whole world that, I am exclusively yours." He held my hands and sweetly caressed them. " Rackie, please tell me. don't shut me out of your life. I will do everything you want once we got married. This is all I want; I will never ask you for anything anymore after our marriage. Please, just this one…" he said and put his head on my shoulder.

"I am sorry, this tim—"

He lifts his head, holds my shoulders then looks at me intently. "Wait, are you doing this because you are experimenting so you can write the right expression and emotions of your character that you are currently writing?" he said in a serious tone.

I blink a few times and crook my forehead. "What? Of course, n—"

"Oh, Rackie! I bought the cookies that you like. You know what; if you like to see that kind of reaction just tell me after so I can calm my nerves. you really are full of surprises that make me feel nervous."

"Master like I was saying—"

"Do you want a massage? The twins are getting heavy each time I visit them and you always carry them when you need to put them to sleep."

"Are you for real, Terric? You don't even make me finish what I want to say?"

He looks at me with a sad gaze. "Rackie, are you saying that you are serious with what you said?" he asked with seriousness. I can't look him straight in the eyes. With that kind of tone, I knew that he is serious. "Hey, look at me," he said, it sounds like begging but with authority. I shook my head. He sighs. "Abstract, do you know how much you will pay if you back out?" I nod. "Did you read the condition after the compensation?" I shook my head. "Hmm… then, let me tell you, after the compensation, you will grant one request from me and you cannot say no to whatever request I want. It is written on page xx, clause xx." I looked at him and he smirked at me. "Well, if you are not convinced, then why don't you see it yourself." He said and left to check the twins that are in their crib.

I looked at the page and clause that he mentioned in the contract and he is telling the truth. Whatever he might request after the compensation, I have to abide by. I went to the kitchen where he is sitting down and preparing the meal for the both of us. "What is your request?" I hope it won't be marriage.

"What if I tell you, I want you to give me full custody of the twins?" he said without turning so I couldn't tell what expression he is making. "Remember, you can't say no but I am giving you the benefit of the doubt."

Giving full custody of the twins to him means I will be the one to ask for visitation rights and everything that I need to be with my children. I felt my heart ache just thinking about it.

"What if I tell you, I want to have another child and I want to make it as soon as possible? It's not a bad deal, after all, you can have the twins… I will still be a father to them but the next baby will be in my custody and whenever I visit, you can be able to see the child." he said once again.

Another baby to make, then that means I have to do that with him again. It's not that I cannot do it again but I just gave birth, how can he be so cruel?

"What if I tell you, I want our baby girl to be with me and our baby boy will stay with you they can still play though whenever we visit."

Separating the twins, I won't allow that! I never thought that he was this desperate to have a child.

"Or… those conditions won't matter as long as we live as a family of four, doing the husband and wife duties and setting aside the marriage." He said while I am contemplating. "You have to choose, Abstract. Getting a marriage certificate, how your family wants it to be, or living in with me and doing all the perks of a married couple."

I do not know who this man was right in front of me anymore. Why is he doing this? I am about to answer when he suddenly hugs me tight.

"Those are all just what-ifs, Rackie. I will never let you choose any of them. I am just making you think of the possibilities that I might request from you but I am not that cruel to break your heart by requesting that will go against your principle. However, I only have two requests that you can choose from. You will still have the option."

"What are those options you have for me?"

"First option, give me the chance to show you how much I love you by going on a date with me once a week. At least, you can still think that if you date me you will know me better not just a friend." He said and he sighed. "Second option, I know I cannot stop you from marrying someone else if we really didn't end up together so, my request is... when that time comes, I hope that you will choose to have someone that our twins will approve of."

I close my eyes and hug him. I am just backing out because of that call I made last week when a girl answered his phone. I am just afraid that he will get tired of me because I can't give the things that he expects me to give. I am afraid that he will find a girl that can give more than what I can offer. I can't help but think about it over and over again. I don't want to lose our friendship the most yet here I am pushing him over and over again. "Who is that girl who answered your phone?" I can't help but ask.