Kapitel 52: Epilogue
This is from the beginning where we started knowing at each other.
At first...
"Ally, this is Krishianna Marie A. Lorenzo." My mom introduce us. A tall girl looks like a fifteen years old with his off shoulder red dress, white sling bag and a white 3 inches heels. His hair has pure black and she even had a bangs.
Perfect shaped brows, pointed nose and reddish lips. I can sense the strong personality in his eyes. Her vibes like she wanted to escape in this situation right now. It looks like she wanted taste a freedom of her own.
Beside her, was his younger brother. Maybe a younger old than her. Except from her, his brother smiled at me a little before offering a shake hands like I used to eat from the other people. I smiled back and shook his hand a second before turning back into my pocket.
While the Krisha's having her crossed arms, uninterested, I turned back to my mom who's continue talking. I didn't even heard what she said after mentioning their names.
"Dito muna sila satin. They're still processing about what happened to their late family. They're still traumatic and adjusting for now." My mom said, whispering at me. Hoping they can't hear it.
I just nodded and without saying anything. I waved at the back of my hand and gesturing that I'll go now to meet my two friends.
"Ano? May bagong nakitira sainyo?" Frances repeated what I've said with a surprised by his face.
I nodded again to confirm it. On the other side, Israel just looked at the two of us, not surprised anymore.
"Yes, two person. Maybe on the other some time, they'll just leave because of our suffocating house."
That's what I've said to them but I found myself a months later playing with her. I didn't even imagining myself to be friends with the siblings but I found myself laughing specially to the girl. She has a beautiful pure black hair with a small bangs.
I remember what I saw the picture yesterday, it looks like my mom travel with those siblings month ago. She looked at the sky at the picture, staring at the snow. She looked more beautiful with the sideways if her face.
"Can you promise me a one thing?" I asked her while we're at the playground. For Pete's sake of being teen ager, we're still playing like a kid.
She looked at me and smiled. "Anything, what it is?"
My heart was starting to react so fastly. I don't how to say it. But if one day we'll just separate and find our ways, I hope there's still time that we met each other again. One more year and I'm responsible for anything, including those.. organization.
"Don't fall in love." I whispered, making it sure if she can hear it, I would do to run fast as I can because of the embarrassing moment.
She stared at me for so long so I've tried to stared at her back. Her smiling face was staying so I'm not sure if she heard it or not.
"What?" I asked when she's quiet for a minute.
"How can I fall inlove in this age?" She suddenly asked and I choke with my own saliva. I coughed and touch my chest, I can even hear her laughter on the other side.
My face heated up because of the embarrassment. Right, we're still teenager's. And I was the only one thinking of falling in love.
I was a curious kid, if the thing catched my attention, I really wanted to try how to play or what does it feel. I always saw my parents do the heart talking. They're sweet as chocolatws and always clinging to each other like there's no tomorrow.
It is because they love each other? Or it's like a drug? It's so addicting?
I don't know. The last time I saw her was not good enough. Even my last day, I was even a worst person.
"Let's just pretend the we do not know each other. You know what I'm talking about right? Let's just forget our moments and memories we create." I told her straight forward. I do this because I love her, no- I mean I like her. And I'm willing to do anything just to protect her.
She's just staring at me blankly. I'm just getting nervous for a second. I thought I would be releaved when she agreed but it bothers me forever.
"Be careful what you wish for.." That was the last time she said and walked away in front of me after.
Maybe, I'm the worst. I always choose to hurt many people just because of the lame reason. For the past years, I couldn't believe that we still cross a path. At the school of her friend. I can feel her staring at me and I was nervous what she think of me now.
Everything was change. Even her features, she's more blooming all day. Her skin was not like dark anymore. Her skin got lighter and she's more taller. Her hair color was the same but the style was not full of straight. She got a wavy hair, she looks like her mom.
The gay introduced me to her. I almost laughed because of her serious face. I thought she was fooling me but I'm surprised by her sudden changed of voice.
"Nice to meet you Lexord, sana makipag cooperate ka bilang partner ko." She then, presented her arms to extend it.
Someone's laughing but the other was glaring at her. I just choose to pretend and accept her soft hand before shaking it a little.
I choose to ignore my thoughts when she started talking about the song we planned at the first place. This is Israel's plan but I can't see myself talking to her. I stared at her secretely when Christina Perry sang of A thousand years. It looks like a song wedding for me but if she want to choose this, I wouldn't be bother to agreed without a second of thoughts. I already knew that she's observing us. There's no secret will be revealed, she's still transparent and easy to read and observed. If she can't confess it right now, it's fine. There's no reason to be getting mad.
I only knew her parents in the picture. I even ordered my men to investigate her family background. Same reasons, involving of the Melendez family, her parents involved to the ambush when baby Krishiana's crying to her mother's arms. Involving to kidnap her and protect their child at all cost.
I missed her so much. But I had something to do with the organization. Eyah was the girl who will messed you up if she didn't achieve or get the things she wants. She's a spoiled brat of the group, I didn't even know why she's my partner. I couldn't even saw her as a pretending to be queen in a real queen. Her attitude towards me irritate me. She's so clingy to me and always daydream to be together until our hair turns to gray.
It sounded so crazy. Now that I saw my childhood friend. I was having a second thought if I would express my feelings for her. I know myself rather than anyone else. And I also know that she's still my love form the very start. I don't want to end up being with someonw if it isn't her. It's sounded so crazy and imagined how would I feel of being inlove.
Many people changed because of love. Being smart to being stupid. It likes a drug, it likes she's my drug but better than that. When I first saw her, I know to myself that she's the one I've been looking for.
First time saw her crying in front of me breaks my heart. And it doubled when I knew that maybe, she wasn't pretending. Or maybe, she choose to forget me like what I said for the past years. I regret everything what happened back ther. She's happy with me, and I'm happy with her.
The marriage was always on my mind when we together. We found ourself resting at each other. We found comfort to each other. I can even no longer wait for the moment to have a marriage with her.
We're okay, we're fine. Until my feelings got overflowed. I can't conteol my happiness when I knew that she loved me back. But that love wasn't perfect for us, maybe, a right person but in the wrong time.
She's waiting for me. Waiting for me to answer her questions. But I couldn't still ready to share my family background. It was not like in the past. It was all lie about their love for each other. I didn't know if I continued to do this. But I just found myself, accepting being bait from the enemy just to protect her.
I couldn't eat in a weeks. I always glared at Eyah who's smirking at me. The table turns and she looked like a boss, walking freely around and circling me.
"I already warned you about her, why you're not listening to me?" My blood boils when she started to talked. "You're really stubborn kid. If I were you, I would run away to save myself and leaving that girl behind."
I want to punch her and kicked her. I don't care of she's still a girl. She know how to use my weakness everytime she's following me. She's the creepy stalker I ever had. And we even have to pretend to be together and I'm happy and choose to be with her, realizing loving Krishianna will destroy me.
"This is the last warning, Laiden. You know what can I do with that bitch. Just second counting and she will be gone if you still rejecting me."
I feel the goosebumps all over my body. She's so freaking obsessed from the position and to me. I don't even know why she is like that. She's blinded by the money and power and also the love. I know what happened to her family but this is too much to have a revenge.
"No! Stop involving her into this mess Eyah!" I shouted and screaming in pain when I loomed the sharp chain in my wrists.
"Oh~ stop moving or you continued to hurt yourself. Just listen to me and to my plan then well done. As easy as that. Love make you stupid, love will make you foolish. Stop being in that world or you'll not just destroy yourself, but to me." She touched my face and kissed my cheeks.
I tried to reached her hair and succefully did. She screamed in pain and tried to call someone's for the help. I was blinded by my rage. I don't even know what I do but I just got knocked out and waking up for a second time without chain in my body.
My tears fell unstoppable when I remember her. What do I do in the past to make me feel like there's no hope for me to came back again and reached her?
I wasted 7 years, looking for her. I tried many times to have a thoughts being ended up but they tried to stop me.
"Stop hurting yourself Laiden! Hindi matutuwa si Krisha sa ginagawa mo." Israel was mad at me. He looked tired from stopping me ending my life. I cried and cried when he mention her name.
"I was already hurting her, there's no second chance or even a third chance from me. It sucks to pretend like nothing happened between us. It sucks being pretend and hurt people around me for the sake of that *** organization! That thing, will completely destroy me! I don't want to be a part of it! I even don't want to pretend! I'm not wishing to be part of this shit!" I punched the wall and kicked the chairs in the living room. The two tried to stop me again.
"I see what I can do." The blue eyes catched my eyes and smiled a little. Chloe's in front of me and we're in the garden together with Lucas.
"Please, just just looked for her. I know that I'm bothering you two too much but I can't still show myself to her. Everything that I've done to her in the past is like hell and wants to make me vanished myself."
"No, there's always a reason behind it why some people did some stupid things you know? Kung iyon lang naman ang paraan para mailigtas ang taong mahal natin, why not to take a risk? Love isn't always perfect. We're humans. And I'm sure if you two are ready to face each other, I'll be gladly to help when time comes you two will be healed from the wound you created. I know Krishianna, she's not easily fell with cries, but I know she's hurting inside."
"She's not here yet?" I asked her again, hopefully she'll finally show her face for me.
She's smiled at me and shook her head. "Wait until the time comes. Don't waste your time when you have a free time to talk to her. We'll always on your side, both of you."
"Thank you, Chloe."
I'm happy, when I knew about her friends that she's here. She finally came back, but for other some reason. Azure was with her all the time and I can see that her boss likes her, from the beginning.
They even announcr the engagement shit in front of me. I accidentally catched her eyes. I didn't even move in my chair when I saw her surprised to see me.
What? Did she expect that I'm not invited?
Why? Doesn't she want to see me? But sorry. You're only mine and if ever you two will have a wedding, I'll be gladly walked on the asile alone and stopped your wedding.
That crazy idea popped to my thoughts. I couldn't bear to see their faces like they're in love and contented to each other.
Not now when I saw her facial expressions whe she saw me, I know that I'm still have a chance to enter her life again.
It was not easy to having conversations with her again. It feels like we're strangers. It hurts me when she looked at me like we're not even friends. It's always my fault and I deserved it anyway.
I do anything to make Eyah go down into the position she created before having a conversations like in the party. But I was surprised when we ended up in the bed, sharing emotions to each other. I even think of impregnated her but It would be bad for her.
Some days, I would peacefully sleeping. The other day was not. Thinking of her again would made me crazy. I tried to talk to you again and asked if I had a chance. At first, she's avoiding me. She keep hurting me with her words and ended up crying in front of her. It was the most embarrassing but what could I do with it?
She choose herself at first. It was hard to accept the fact that she suffered because of my stupid reasons. I only relieved when she started realizing things. I even realized that she's not the one who suffered because of that girl. We both are. Destroying our relationship means broke us apart for the second time. It hurts more and more. My thoughts always active and thinking of giving up again. But I was surprised when she runned to me and gave me a tight hug.
My chest keep tightened when I heard her cries. Those parts keep me awakening that everything will always happended to us for many reasons. Our bond together are still there. Even if we hurt at each toher so many times, we always found a ways to running to each other arms again.
I got rejected of my first plan. But in the last of thoughts of marrying her, she finally said yes.
"I love you so much, my protector." She whispered to me. Her baby bump was so obvious now.
One month to go and she will delivered our baby girl.
"I always love you more. Can't wait to see our little sunshine soon." I kissed her lips and smiled whe she kissed me back.
"Can't wait to build more family with you." She replied.
With her, I always feel safe and contented. There's no rainbow if she's not my end game.
~The End~
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