Kapitel 49: Chapter 47

I suddenly realized what I had said. Oh my gosh!! I wasn't supposed to say it out loud. I'm actually suffer in silent type and I hardly let myself being strayed away by feelings or anything. I try to control like I've been doing ever since I saw him, ever since I knew him, ever since I felt for him...

Even though I hate to admit it but, yeah.... I did fell for him. Even though it's not the right thing to do. Even though we won't have a happy ending. Even though he might, no he has someone special, someone he loves. Still I feel for him. I can't stop my heart.

And if I was one of those types who let out their feelings then , I might have already done lots of things with him that includes begging, crying, forcing and all the possible things that I could do to have him all by myself. To make him mine. Yeah, except that I had hugged him couple of times. But those doesn't count. Cause we bearly had any emotions attached to that. Actually I did but he didn't. And so, it wasn't mutual.