Kapitel 11: Seven years later...

7 years later..

Valerie's POV

Empty... That's what I feel, that's what I felt all these years. I'm proud that I survived so far. True I tried something stupid but I learned to die is easy but living?

Living your life when you know you can't is the biggest challenge you make to yourself. Once you over cross that challenge and face all those difficulties I'm sure life will show you a different path far more interesting than before.

But, even though all the hard work paid off I didn't feel myself. I don't feel like to be a happy person.

Smiling at people and telling them you are Okay when you are not; hurts the most. It's like you are controlling yourself like you are not dying in your misery.

My senior year was hard, I was not me anymore. I didn't like the things I loved before. Everything felt so wrong. I couldn't share my things with anyone.