Kapitel 72: Jace Left

Miracle's POV

I am having fun and I am glad everyone is enjoying our camping activities, but when Jace gets his guitar and started playing it while his girlfriend is singing I can't deny the pain that I feel in my heart. I am envious and no matter how much I control myself I can't deny it to myself that I am jealous of Caitlin. I want to hate her, but I hate myself more. I don't have any right to feel this way, Caitlin must be the one hating me for fantasizing about her long time boyfriend.

How can I desire someone who is already taken? Am I that bad? Is it wrong to fall in love with someone who is taken already? I know the answer to that question, but I tried to ignore all the guilt I feel, because of the feelings I have for Jace. I love Jace and I never felt this kind of emotion before. I want to have him in my life to be my first of everything. I am willing to offer myself to Jace and I felt ashamed and excited just thinking about it.