Kapitel 26: The Orientation Seminar Part 1

Miracle's PO

I don't know how I feel when Jace confessed that he has a girlfriend. It is a big possibility that he has one since he is so handsome and attractive, why I didn't bother to ask him even once if he has someone he loves and adores. I remained standing behind the closed door after he had gone. I am holding back my tears. Jace pierced my heart. It feels like I am fifteen years old again. I go through the same affliction.

The embarrassment and humiliation I felt is so painful, what have I done? I told him about my affections, and I thought he liked me too, maybe I was too naïve to believe everything I see, maybe he doesn't want me at all, I assume that he has feelings for me too, what I did was so degrading, I can have him if I demand to, but I don't wish her girlfriend to suffer like I did, I am so angry with him, why didn't he informed me about his sweetheart?

I am lying in my bed thinking about what happened. No matter how I see it, it is not Jace's fault at all. It was me who showed an interest in him. It is not the other way around, I should have kept it to myself, he only wants to be friends with me that is all, but I gave a different meaning to his friendship with me. How I could be like this, I used to be so distant to anyone. I don't wish to be attached to anybody why I allowed Jace to draw close to me, maybe I was confused too, perhaps I only crave him to be my ally, he is the only acquaintance I have since after Johnny.

I can't sleep at all, I felt so betrayed and hurt, I can't imagine Jace kissing another woman, I get so jealous, how could Jace wounded my heart, I should not feel this way since there is nothing going on between us, Jace only kissed me because I asked him to. He only followed my order. I am such a fool for believing that someone loves me. My tears fall on my cheeks, I don't even know why I am crying. I cried and sulked in my room. After hours of whimpering, I called Jimmy and told him I will go to start my training tomorrow.

I wish to replace Jace with Charles to be my escort during my practicum, but it would be clear, I am avoiding him because of his rejection. I have dignity and I don't want Jace to figure out I am head over heels with him, I can explain to him I don't admire him at all, but I know he won't buy it, I promise myself to avoid him. This is the first time I feel this way after a long moment. I have been waiting for this to come, but my heart is bleeding because of pain.

I have to pretend I am strong if I have to do it in front of him. I don't like to give Jace a satisfaction, knowing that I am so crazy about him, I wish I fall to the son of my father's business partner, not to my bodyguard, I didn't stop myself from telling him the truth. How could I be stupid? I should have thought before I speak my mind.

I wake up early in the morning, even I haven't slept great. I hit the gym, and I exercised for half an hour, then I showered and dressed in business attire, I descended the stairs one step at a time and found my bodyguards waiting for me in the living room, I averted my gaze from Jace, after what happened last night I don't want to have eye contact with him, I can't deny that he looks so gorgeous with his outfit. The long sleeve and black slacks he is wearing fit his body in all places.

I am lying if I say I am not happy to see him, but part of me wants him to stay behind, I don't know how to survive my first day in the office with Jace. I perceive it confuses him why I go to the company now, and not tomorrow, I walked past them saying nothing while keeping my face serious, and I am trying to show no emotions at all.

"Good morning, Ms. Miracle!" All of them greeted me with a smile on their faces, I just nodded and continue walking in going to the parking lot.

I felt that Jace has been just behind me. Then he opened the car door for me.

"Thank you!" I said without looking at him. I turn my head and watch the other bodyguards get in the van, I can smell his natural scent even if I am sitting in the back seat, I want to be near him and to feel his touch again, I reprimanded myself and remember what happened last night.

"Are you ready, Miss White?" Jace asked me and I can look at his handsome face in the rearview mirror.

I can feel my face flushed when our gazes met, and I am speechless once again. Jace King can stupefy me, but I try to look unaffected with his tantalizing eyes. He turned away his head without saying a single word. He starts the engine and drives the car fast.

The entire drive I am looking at the window, trying to watch the view that passed in a blur. I don't look at Jace because I don't want to beg him. I am so afraid of my powerful feelings for him. Jace captured my heart, and that is what I realized after many hours lying wide awake last night.

"Miss Miracle, I hope we are good." Jace said after he parked the car. He turned his head and looked at me in the eyes. I am shocked that he is still looking so confident talking to me as if nothing happened last night. I glare at him, I wasn't keen to control myself, I look away from him and open the door, but Jace could beat me to it, he was already standing in front of me after I climbed out the automobile.

"Miracle! Please talk to me." He looked so worried.

"We have nothing to discuss Mr. King, forget that it happened last night, erase everything from your memory. It was a stupid declaration, and I was just joking, I can't ask you if you have a girlfriend that is why I use that method." I lied to him.

"Is that mean we are good?" Jace said while smiling at me, but I don't have a heart to return his captivating smile, I am frustrated about what I learned about him, I still can't accept that he has a girlfriend.

"There is nothing wrong between us Mr. King, and please while we are working as trainees, I don't want the staff of the company and other practicum students to realize that we are acquainted with each other, let us pretend that we don't know each other. Is that clear?" I said, and that is the only way I can avoid Jace.

"Wow! You hate me!" He said, I can see the sadness in his face.

"What made you think I am angry with you, Mr. King? There is no reason that I will be indignant with you, besides I just prefer to stop what we were doing. It was all my idea, and I am taking it all back. I don't require us to talk again late at night, you can't get inside my room anytime you wish unless I ask you to. That is my request of you, Mr. King, I hope you will adhere to my order." I said, then I turned around and go to the main door of the Miracle building.

I can't forget the looked of pain in Jace's face, but he made me suffer too. From this moment of my life, I won't allow anyone to hurt me. Even though it wasn't his fault, he should have told me what was true. Most of all, I don't want us to be closed with each other again because I am afraid of myself. I can't afford to be humiliated once more.

I go to the marketing department and meet the manager, Mr. Hastings. He introduced me to his secretary who is assisting Jace, I felt jealous the moment I saw her looking at Jace with admiration. She brings us to the boardroom for the orientation, as per instruction by Mr. Hastings.

The minute we arrived, there are trainees waiting for the speaker. Jace sits at the far corner of the room, a lot of female practicum students were checking him out already, I wanted to sit beside him. I am glad he ignores them. He looks so perturbed. Maybe he missed his girlfriend back home, and he was thinking about her.

Just thinking about him daydreaming about the love of his life makes my day gloomy. How I wish Jace King is pondering about me. Then the entire room went silent the moment the speaker came inside and after it settles everybody, she started the seminar. She welcomes everybody with a wonderful smile on her face. She is good and not boring at all.

Ms. Windy, the speaker, urged for us to organize ourselves, and we divided into small groups and ordered us to introduce each one of us. My forehead wrinkles the moment I realized I am in the same group with Jace. The members of our team begin the exercise, I introduced myself to everyone, and I gave them my sweet smile. I am hoping to find a loyal friend with this cluster I am with.

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