Kapitel 11: THE COLOR BLACK

Seeing his gaze shifting in my direction, I suddenly couldn't explain the emotions arising in my body. But one thing is for sure, my heart is suddenly beating faster than it used to.

Quickly, I averted my eyes, looking away. I feel like my heart can possibly come out inside my chest because of its own heavy beating. I don't even know why I'm feeling this way. Thinking that I'm just nervous when he's near or I'm just scared of his presence.

I looked up and saw the blue sky. The sky is so peaceful. I smiled when I saw a group of birds flying. I wish I could feel that freedom as well. I don't know, as I was growing up I learned to lie just to have the freedom I wanted to have. Indeed, strict parents raise the best liars.

I can feel Lianno's stare even though we're too far away from each other. Despite the need to lower my head, since it is starting to ache now, I breathed heavily and withstand the urge for a little longer

When I couldn't hold out against the temptation anymore, I closed both of my eyes and then at a lightning speed, lowered my head. I can't meet his intense gaze to me. Isn't it weird if I turn my head to the other side so I can't look at his eyes?

Holding my eyes tight shut, silently wish that when I open them, he will be gone from my sight, but destiny seems to not favor me as I saw him slowly walking towards the place where I'm currently sitting.

Inhale... Exhale... Inhale... Exhale...

I calmed myself down for the reason that my heart was beating again faster.

"Are you ok?" I just nodded as an answer to his question. I did not have the strength to speak as I was so nervous by his presence. Seeing a frown and irritation in his face.

"Why aren't you talking? Are you sure you're ok?"

"Y-yeah" I didn't even realize that my words became stutter. I think that this routine will happen every time he talks to me.

I saw him nodding his head at what I said. He stared at me for a couple of minutes. The atmosphere went awkward, but a man in a black soldier uniform called him. He left this place after that.

I took a deep breath, realizing that I was not breathing the whole time he's staring at me. Fortunately, I did not lose consciousness because of my long restraint.

I stood up from the ground, touring myself around the garden to ease my boredom. Isabela told me earlier that I can pick flowers from here. While going around this lovely garden, something caught my attention,

A black rose, I have seen red roses all my life so this color of rose is somehow new to me. Woah! I'm amazed at the rose standing in front of me. I'm fond of the color black so a simple thing like this is actually big for me.

I took a few pieces of the black rose. I was really careful when getting it because it has large thorns that can hurt my skin. I'm planning on putting them in some empty flower vases in my room.

I didn't leave that room for a few days, but when I finally realized that I'm just wasting my time sulking and crying when I know that it can't change the fact that I could not return to my world anymore.

I leaned over to the swing that I saw on the edge of the garden in front of it was a fountain covered in gold and diamonds. I wonder how rich is Lianno's family? I saw that almost all of their furniture here was wrapped in gold.

I look forward to Isabela's and Jea's return. They left me here earlier since they informed me that they were just going to do something for a while.

This black rose is really beautiful. Sometimes I wonder why most people like the color black. And It struck me, Black can be a basic color, yet black absorbs all visible wavelengths of light.

For me, that light represents our problem. Like the color black, all my life I only hid all my problems without even reflecting it. Maybe that's the reason why I like black, somehow it represents what I'm truly am.

Black reminds me of my problems. Problems may be dark for us, but we should know that there's a beauty hidden inside of them. Also, problems are the one that makes us mentally strong. That's why I treasure some of my darkest times as it is the reason for what I am right now.

"Celestina, We're sorry if you got bored while you're waiting for us" I saw worry in Jea's eyes as I look through it.

I quickly shake my head and stood up. I suddenly feel sad because of all the things that I'm thinking about earlier. Maybe I should not think about that all the time. It will just hurt me.

"I'm sorry if we took so long. We helped with the kitchen work"

"It's ok. I would like to go back to my room now to rest" I smiled at them while saying those words.

I'm actually feeling sleepy. It's not tiring to read and sit down, but why am I drowsy? They just nodded at what I said and start walking and leading the way back and I, in the back just followed them.

"Celestina, we will go first. We'll just come back when you want to eat already so that you can rest completely." I nodded as I smiled. I also entered the room alone while they were left outside.

I immediately went to the bed. My body feels so heavy and I'm feeling really sleepy. I sleep after silently wishing to destiny, hoping everything will be better in the next days.

Waking up, I was startled by the sound of the loud knocking on the door.

"Here's your dinner" I felt their presence entering the door even though I was still lying down. When I saw Isabela walking directly in here I straightened up and sat down, facing them.

I looked at the food. I don't know why is their rice is black here. Even the main color of their clothes is black. I guess this place loves the color black, like me.

"You should eat your dinner already " I'm really going to eat because my stomach is growling out of hunger. Guess I slept for too much. I was able to cope up with my hunger earlier because I was feeling drowsy but now that my mind is fully awake I can't do that anymore.

Their food here is delicious, especially the dessert that they always serve me every day. Vanilla Ice Cream with golden leaves. Even though my parents are rich, I haven't eaten this yet, but here they eat this almost every day.

I saw Jea walking slowly towards Isabela's direction Whispering in her ears so I didn't have the chance to hear out what she said.

"The head servant of this kingdom is calling us, Celestina. Can we leave you for the meantime?"

"Of course," I smile as I answered them.

They just arrived and they're leaving again? But on second thought, why were they called in the first place?