Kapitel 175: Communication

Ford.

We sit in the silence of each other. There was an apology but he is as nervous as I am. I want to make amends. I want to move on past this hatred I have for him. Knowing that things might now have been the way I remember them just tells me that all along, I might have been the problem. The reason why our relationship has been so rocky.

It is all your fault. 

The demons in my head are loud. They want to control me, make me think about things the way I always have. I am trying to heal from all this but I don't know how to. I don't know how to come out stronger from this. I am at the stage in my life where I don't even know who I am. I have been living a lie all this while. I tried to convince Lance that he was a monster and it worked. He hates my father even a lot worse than I do and I don't know how I can convince him otherwise.

"You're going to be okay,'' he mutters, finally.