Kapitel 5: 5. Home
After finishing our meal Katsuo offers to pay the bill.
"You don't have to, I can pay" I quickly say before Katsuo pays.
"It's fine, I dont think you have the money to pay anyway," replies Katsuo, he has a point I dont think this person even has any money.
After Katsuo pays the bill we go next door to a place that will help me find an apartment, we browse the options and find an apartment next door to where Katsuo lives.
"How convenient," I say to Katsuo, wait if I can't pay for a meal how am I going to pay for an apartment?
"Katsuo, I just realised I can't pay for the apartment, we should go," I say.
"Oh..." Katsuo pause "I'll pay"
"No it's fine, you dont have to pay, you've already paid for my mean, I would feel guilty if you paid any more than you already have," I say trying to convince him.
"Ok how about this, I have a messy place if you clean it for me and cook I'll consider that as payment, ok?" says Katsuo
"O-ok sounds good" I reply, s-so I'll be like his housewife? I dont mind that at all, I thought as I start to blush, wait what am I thinking, do I actually that strong of feelings for him?
After we chose the apartment we go to check it out and while we were at it Katsuo showed me his apartment.
"Do you need help moving your stuff?" asks Katsuo.
"If I recall the only things I own in my apartment is a couple of change of clothes a toothbrush and the millions of beer bottles all over my floor, and I think I'll chuck away the bottles, so not really" I reply as we exit the door.
Three hours later I had finally finished moving my toothbrush and my spare clothes in my new apartment, I think I broke the world record for moving apartments, I sit at the computer I borrowed from Katsuos to see if I could get a job.
I look around and find one at the cat cafe Katsuo and I visited the earlier today, Kitty cafe was it? wow, they pay well maybe I'll apply there...
I write a resume and send it to them, I've never written a resume before I hope it was ok. I stare at the roof for a minute, what should I do? I have nothing to do now, I close my eyes and fall asleep in seconds.
I toss and turn again, I dream about this person's life again and how they feel, all the pain they experience in a lifetime I felt in one nap.
My chest got tighter and tighter, I dream about the time she was betrayed by her friends, the time she was abandoned by her parents and the time her only friend that cared died slowly from a punch from her abusive boyfriend.
As I was getting to the saddest part of the dream I was suddenly woken by a loud voice and a violent shaking.
"Hina! Hina! Are you ok? I heard you yell in your sleep" says a voice, I open my eyes and see Katsuo.
"Oh your awake, was it one of those dreams you told me about?" he asks out of concern.
"yeah, but it was worst this time," I say wiping my eyes with my sleeve, was I crying again? How embarrassing, I hope he doesn't think I'm pathetic. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to worry you"
"It's fine I'm just glad you're ok," says Katsuo "also you left your apartment door unlocked, you should be careful"
"Oh, I didn't know, thank you" I reply "What time is it?"
"Five pm. why" asks Katsuo.
"Didn't you say part of my pay for the apartment was for me to cook and clean?" I ask.
"Yeah, what about it?" asks Katsuo.
"Well, I think I should start cooking" I reply.
"Oh need some help?" Katsuo offers.
"No thank you, it's my job, your paying for my apartment and this is how I'm paying you back," I say.
"I don't mind," says Katsuo.
After a while of debating, I finally convince Katsuo to let me cook, Katsuo shows me around his kitchen, he shows me the ingredients and cooking utensils.
I finally started cooking, I hadn't cooked before and I didn't realize of bad of a cook I was till I burnt everything I cooked in seconds.
"Are you sure you don't want help?" asks Katsuo.
"Quick questions, for the ingredients can I use a phone and a couple of dollars?" I ask with the intent of ordering pizza.
"I guess you could, but how about next time I teach you how to cook?" Katsuo offers.
"Ok," I say ashamed about my cooking abilities, I ordered pizza and we sit and wait.
When the pizza man arrives we pay and collect the pizza, we sit on the couch, watching tv and eating pizza.
After finishing my pizza I say bye to Katsuo, I head next door to where my apartment was, normally I go to bed but because of the dreams I have I decide not to, I stay up as late as I can trying to find new ways to keep myself awake but eventually I fall asleep...
Like usual I toss and turn in my sleep, having nightmare's and only dreaming about the bad experiences of this person.
Why, why just the bad experiences?
I slowly open my eyes, I stare at my ceiling, I again sit there and try to sort my thoughts, but I'm too worked up to think straight, I get up and make my way in the shower to cool off.
How do I deal with this pain?
Should I deal with it like Akari and cut myself, psychical pain is better than emotional but is there another way, I can't talk to a therapist, I can't tell anyone but Katsuo about what's happening to me, maybe I should ask Katsuo, for some reason I forget about my pain around him.
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