Kapitel 6: AOTE 5
Bruise that makes me tough...
Scars of the past...
Even if I hide at the end of the universe. This sadness and longing feeling will always chase me.
Until my death day.
AppleOfTheEye
APPLEOFTHEEYE 05
Chapter 5
Seven in the evening. Tulala akong nakatingin sa kawalan.
Dapat ba akong maging masaya sa nakita ko kanina? Ugh!
I want to cry. He didn't even noticed me. Ganon ba talaga katagal ang limang taon? It's been a while,I still know every details of him.
Kamusta na kaya sya?
I didn't know that I will felt missing him,if our paths crossed again.
Wala ba talaga akong kwentang anak,para maka-limutan nya ako sa loob lang nang limang taon?
"Dad..."I can't control the tears that come out from my eyes. I can't control myself from felling down.
Kusa akong nalugmok sa kama ko at umiyak don nang umiyak. Why I am expecting him to look for me? I'm worthless,I'm no use. Unlike his favourite daughter,Lucia.
I just cry all night,hugging my teddy bear and looking outside. It's raining,as if the weather is also crying with me.
I sighed and wiped out my tears.
It's already twelve midnight,but I'm still looking a far. I didn't know what to do right this time. I'm just missing him,I can't go and hug him tight. I can't stand hearing those painful words again.
5 years ago
"You worthless kiddo! Wala kang utang na loob!"daddy slammed his study table and look at me. His eyes were fierce,dagger eyes. That makes me flinch,at any time it strikes on me.
"S-sorry dad--"he didn't finished me. I felt myself on the floor. He slapped me.
"Lumayas ka Ari! Wala kang kwenta! Hindi ka isang Avery! Hindi ka na nabibilang sa pamilyang ito!"
End of Flashback
Wala nang awat ang pag-patak nang luha ko. Those words,reminds me that I am no longer his daughter. I am not the old Arieza.
I am Arieza Avery,who grow on my own. Without him. And I can live more years,standing and facing everything... Without him.
I write on my draft.
Why does past keeps on chasing me? I'm now at peace. Why should I suffer because of pain I buried years ago?
Is this what they said... unlucky fate?
The next day,I am eating my lunch at the school cafeteria. When a familiar woman show up. Mitchell Medrano.
She stop in front of my table and ask me if the chair in front of me is available. This is unusual.
She will not share a table with anyone.
I am just starting at her. Then she snap her finger. Nang matauhan ay umiling ako at kinunotan sya nang noo.
"You know what? They said you're weird. I don't find you that way... I just find you as a little girl crying behind that fierce look"she pointed me. My brow arched on her. 'What?' I mouthed
"Your eyes were swollen"she told me. I just sighed. Someone caught me.
"Napuwing lang ako kanina..."I explained. She giggled and tapped my shoulders.
"Girl,you're lying... You can't lie to me!"she raised her finger in the air and grin at me.
Is she trying to send me a familiar... Cutting game sign?
"What are you..."she didn't let me finish my words.
Out of the blue,I saw myself. Near at the edge of the rooftop. Katabi ko si Mitchell. Her arms were in the air.
"You look stupid there..."she said without looking at me. "Start crying,you biatch!"
I glared at her. No one calls me b*tch!
"Haha! Unusual right? There is someone calls you bitch,again"she smiled. She's creeping me out right now.
She look at me with her puppy eyes.
"Favor please?"
"What?"
She grinned and step forward to my position.
"Can I slap you?"
My forehead creased.
Anong nire-request nya? Sapakin ako? Aba!
Before I react,she already slapped me. Nasapo ko nalang ang pisngi ko. That's ouch! Ang sakit.
"What do you feel?"she asked me.
Napa-iyak ako nang hindi ko nalalaman. Until I found myself hugging my knees. Sobbing so loud.
It hurts. Masakit! Akala ko tapos na kagabi eh. I didn't even thought that someone will know how vulnerable Arieza was.
I leaned myself at the wall and stare at the clouds.
Mahirap maging mag-isa. Masakit sa damdamin,na malalaman mong hindi ka na nya maalala. Bakit sa dinami dami nang maari... Bakit ako? Bakit ako?
Dad...
"Why me? Please... It is... Painful!"I sobbed. Nahihirapan na naman akong huminga. "Bakit ako... Of everything you can forgot? Why me?"
"Why me,dad? Bakit ako pa?"
"If it hurts... I am here"instead of Mitchell's voice. I heard Zachariah Zamora.
"Please leave me..."I wiped my tears and glared at him. He smiled at me and tapped my head.
"Kahit pala,masakit na... Pinipilit mo pa rin na hindi ko makita ang nararamdaman mo. You're such a tough woman. But sometimes,you should stop pretending"he said to me and sit down beside me.
My tears burst out again. Sa sobrang pagka-ngalay nang ulo ko. I leaned my head on his shoulders. He is just silent.
He gives me the peace I want.
I didn't expect our EIC to come here. Zachariah Zamora. Our great taga-utos in our club.
After a minute of silence I asked him.
"How was your family?"I started.
"Hmmm... To be true,it never became okay. Now,mom and dad were deciding to take an annulment case"he answered. I can feel the sadness behind those words. "How about you?"
"I am not okay... I don't have my family... My mom,died after she give me birth. My dad,have his own family. Abandoned,and forgotten me for years"I tell him.
Maybe it's time. Para malaman naman nang isa sa kanila na hindi ako palaging palaban. That I have my own vulnerability. I have my own weakness. Which is also my strength.
"You mean... You saw him?"he asked me. I laughed.
"We bumped to each other... He just said sorry..."I sighed and look at him. "Aireza,the forgotten daughter"I shrugged my shoulders and leaned on him again.
"What did you felt?"he asked. Tapping my back.
"Ewan. Masakit? Oo, masaya? Oo. I am really missing him. But,what can I do? He didn't missed me back..."I cried on his shoulders. "I thought... I can stand straight infront of him... But yesterday,I trembled" I stopped to breathe some air and sob. He just tapped my back to comfort me.
"Bruise can make me tough. Scars of the past. Even if I hide in the end of the universe. This sadness and longing feeling will always chase me. Until my death day"
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