Kapitel 16: Chapter 15
Chapter 15
Adriella Cresent
A month had passed since JK broke up with me. I still call him and send him messages but i got no answer. I want to talk to him personally, i want to visit him at big hit but I'm afraid and shy to show my face even if i did nothing wrong. It still hurts. My chest still hurts. I still cry, the pain i felt kills me. My heart shattered in million of pieces. His words kept replaying to my head and I can't myself from crying. I still go to work and do my job, i can't let my personal issues affect my work. I have to pretend that I am fine. I had to wear my mask so no one will know that i am hurting so bad. I had to smile in front of everyone.
I saw him today with hoseok oppa but he didn't see me. They came to Mejiwoo. Ms. Jung accompanied them. She also gave the personalized accessories that oppa Hoseok designed. He looks happy now.
I just came home from work. I am exhausted. I did so many drafts of design but it seems I am not satisfy to what I drew. I spend all my time in my office doing drafts. I think I lost my focus when I saw him.
I had my dinner and I already took a shower. Now i am seating at the center of my bed and just thinking about earlier. Then suddenly, Memories flashes back to my mind. All the memories we had.
NP: Euphoria piano ver
*playing the video Memories of JK*
I broke down in tears Thinking all the memories we shared and the night he broke up with me hurts me so bad. I can't breathe. My chest hurts really bad. I cried and i cried. I pour my heart out. I pour out all the pain i felt. After crying for hours, i realize that I need to accept the fact that its over. That He doesn't love me anymore. That he fell inlove with someone else. That he is happy with her. That he will never be mine again. 😢😭😭💔💔 I fell asleep while crying. My hearts broken and i don't know how to fix it. 💔
I woke up in the morning with a puffy eyes and a heavy heart. Since its my day off, I decided to go and talk to Jungkook. This will be the last and I wont bother him anymore. I hope he is not busy.
I got off on my bed and head downstairs to grab my breakfast. After grabbing my my breakfast, headed to the bathroom and took a shower. After one and half hour I'm good to go. I hailed a taxi going to bighit ent. Upon arriving at bighit, I entered the building and I spotted Manager Seji, Bangtan's main manager. I called his attention and I went to him.
g-good moring Manager Seji. I bowed to him
Oh hello, Adriella. What are you doing here?
U-uhm Manager, Is the boys busy?
They are in the dance studio doing their practice. Why?
C-can I talk to Jungkook? Just this once please. I won't take much time. Maybe just 5-15 minutes.
My eyes are pleading him. I hope its okay.
Sure, you can talk to him. They are just at the dance studio the main one. You know that right?
Yes, thank you so much Manager Seji. After the talk to Manager Seji. I went to the main dance studio. My heart beats so fast, i suddenly became more nervous. I am here now at the front door of the dance studio. My heart beats became louder than before. It is pounding so fast. I am sweating cold.
I took at deep breath and decided to knock on the door.
The door opens and i saw Seokjin oppa.
H-hello Seokjin oppa.
Adriella ssi. You came here.
O-oppa, is Jungkook there?
Yes, yes he is.
C-can I talk to him.
Sure. JK, Adriella is here.
Seokjin called Jungkook who's seating on the couch.
He looked at me but he just remain silent.
C-can I have a word Jungkook? D-don't worry I won't take much of your time. Maybe just about 10 minutes.
Go, talk to him.
Seokjin oppa said.
Guys let's go grab some snacks.
Seokjin oppa called the other guys so we could have a privacy.
After the guys left. I went near him. He stood up and faced me.
Np: somebody else- ebony
Adriella. Im sorry.
He said. Upon hearing those words coming from him. My eyes started to watered. 😢💔
🎶"So you said, you've found somebody else
And I prayed, that that was just a lie
So I said I loved you one more time
In case that would change your mind"🎶
D-don't be. Its fine. I-iunderstand. Y-you fell out of love to me and f-fell inlove with someone else.
My voice broke and my tears begun to pour down. My breathe is now uneven.
😭😭😭💔
🎶"You said "I don't want your body but I know that you can find yourself somebody else" 🎶
D-do you r-remember what I-i told y-you about f-falling inlove with another girl? Do you?💔💔😭😭
He nodded.
🎶"Our love has gone cold and it doesn't feel like home when I hold you close
And I'm lookin' at you tryna figure out if this is what you really want"
You said "I don't want your body but I know that you can find yourself somebody else"
I guess I don't want your body if you're wishing you were lying here with someone else"🎶
I-i said t-that i-if ever t-that you f-fall Inlove with s-someone else while y-you're still in a relationship with the first one. I-i said that y-you need to c-chose the s-second one r-right? Know why? He just remained silent as i continue.😭😭💔
B-because y-you will not f-fell inlove with the s-second one i-if y-you're love w-wasn't strong e-enough w-with the F-first one. And i-i guess t-that y-you're l-love f-for me i-is shallow. I-is n-not strong enough t-to hold o-on too.
I broke down in tears and i have a difficulty in breathing. 😭😭💔
🎶"So you said, you've found, somebody else
And I hoped, that this, wasn't goodbye
But I can't help but wonder what went wrong
To make "forever" dead and gone"🎶
I-i g-guess y-you're right about the fan-idol relationship we had. Y-you s-shouldn't pursue me at all. I-i too S-shouldn't c-cross t-that line. I-it should b-be a Fan-idol relationship. W-we s-shouldn't have any relationship besides t-that i-in the f-first place. B-but y-you d-don't have to w-worry. I-I'll a-always s-support y-you and a-always be y-your fan. I-im an A-army remember and an army means a-always supporting, loving and never leaving bangtan.
I smiled eventhough tears are streaming down to my face.
I'll n-never forget t-that. I-i d-dont h-have much c-choice b-but to a-accept t-the f-fact t-that y-you don't l-love me anymore and y-you have f-fallen inlove with s-someone else. I-i guess i-it really o-over now. Y-you are not m-mine anymore. Y-you a-are happy with s-someone e-else now. 😭😭😭💔💔💔
🎶"You said "I don't want your body but I know that you can find yourself somebody else"
Our love has gone cold and it doesn't feel like home when I hold you close
And I'm lookin' at you tryna figure out if this is what you really want"
You said "I don't want your body but I know that you can find yourself somebody else"🎶
P-please b-be h-happy. T-take c-care. T-thank you.
I went near him and whispered to him
🎶"You said "I don't want your body but I know that you can find yourself somebody else"
I guess I don't want your body if you're wishing you were lying here with someone else"🎶
I love you, G-goodbye. 😭💔💔
As soon as i said those words, I turn my back on him and started to walk aways to him. I left the studio with a broken heart and crying face. I just saw the other guys but i just passed by them but then Jimin oppa called me
Adriella
I looked at them, crying but with a smile on my face.😭😭🙂
D-don't worry about me. I-I'm fine. I-i will be f-fine. I-i j-just h-have to b-be strong. D-don't worry I-I'll keep supporting y-you guys. I-i am y-your Army, remember?
T-thank you s-so much. I-I'll go ahead. I'm sorry to t-take much of your time.
Then i bowed to them and left the building and went home broken. 😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔
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End of chapter 15
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A/N: so sad, this is hurtful. Heart breaking. Loving someone you can't have for the rest of your life. 😢😭💔
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