Kapitel 5: t r e s || H U R T
"Hindi naman po pumunta yung natapunan niyo ng tequila, Ma'am" David said as he removed him from my meeting list.
Immediately after throwing my sachel and going home straight, I called David to call Orion to set-up a meeting with his so-called- 'friend' daw.
"Well, I guess he sold my bag to pay his suit." I replied while rolling my eyes inside me. Stupid. That was a limited edition bag. I swear, I worked my ass off just to buy that!
I regret it know.
I sighed and massage my head, "That was a hundred thousand dollar bag for pete's sake!" I taunted while stomping my feet of the ground.
"150k Dollars?!" David said in surprise, well, I afford to buy luxury things; but not every day you can buy a hundred thousand bag!
I just nodded, "Urgh!"
I went off to my meetings light headed, flowing in the air. Totally. Who would be in her right head after just throwing a bag like that?!
I am so heart broken.
"That's all for today Ma'am! See you tomorrow!" My assistant waved at me before going off from work.
I nodded and slumped myself in my table after he left. "I am so stupid! Ahhh!" I cried and messed up my hair. "Louis V. Where are you now that I need you?" I sang in despair.
I quickly drove my way to the nearest mall. Well, I needed to replace my bag. I have the urge to just hunt the arrogant guy and steal my bag back but I'm hopeless. I don't even know his name.
I dialed Orion's number...
Calling Oreo Cookies...
I have always laughed at his nickname, but I love him. Let me have my fun.
"Hey! Oreo!" I cheerfully greeted him, well he will get annoyed. Surely!
I felt him rolling his eyes before talking, "Sienna Vixxen, it's Orions, not Oreo." He corrected me, I am fully aware. But, I don't care.
"Yeah, whatever it is Oreo. Where's your alien friend?" I asked, partly to know if I could still retrieve mg bag.
"Who? The guy you owe a suit?"
I rolled my eyes as I remembered last night, "Yeah..."
I heard him laughed, probably because I don't get my ego hurt that much. "Maybe in an airplane?" He sounded not really sure.
"Why?"
"He loves traveling. Maybe he's back in Germany. He live in Germany." He replied, I felt him smirked in the other line, "Why are you interested? You don't do hook ups... don't you Sienna?" He teased me.
"Hell no! Oreo! He's in debt to me also! Babawiin ko yung sukli ng Sachel bag ko!" I bursted in frustration to the other line.
"Oh really? Interesting... well good luck in finding him. Bye bye! I'm busy Vixxen!" He said
"But I don't—-" he dropped the call.
"—Even know his name," I added and hopelessly sighed. I guess, Rest in peace, Louis V.
Hopeless, I walked in the store to pre-order the luxurious bag. But before doing it, my heart constricted. As I saw my ex and his girlfriend, shopping.
I saw them from the store, laughing as my ex-boyfriend show dresses to her girlfriend. They look so happy it breaks my heart.
Napasapo ako sa puso ko, ang sakit. Ang sakit sakit niya. Parang hinihiwa, parang pinapaso sa sakit. Ang hapdi niya.
Sana manhid na lang ako. Sana nga.
"Ako dapat yan e. Ako dati yan e." I whispered to myself as I watched them.
I was mentally and emotional hardheaded. Bakit ba hindi ko magawa na lumakad palalayo sa kanila, bakit hindi ko na lang ipikit yung mata ko para hindi ko na lang makita? Bakit?
I quickly moved out when I saw them walking out of the store. So they would not see me, this broken. I don't want to look like the loser.
"Babe! Ang ganda nung dress!" I heard his girlfriend said and smiled.
He smiled back, the way he smiled to me last time, "Anything for my Queen." He replied and kissed her forehead.
I was his Queen. Ako dati yun e.
My heart bleed and I started to cry. Bakit ba ang unfair? Bakit ako lang yung nasasaktan? Ang sakit sakit, tapos sila ang saya saya.
I quickly drove out from the mall proceeding to a place only few know. Wala ngang masyadong tao dito kapag malapit na magsunset e.
It's a place at the edge if the city. Makikita mo yung araw na nalubog, habang nakatanaw ka sa busy na city sa baba. This place is so underrated. But atleast it became a haven of pain for me.
Napayakap na lang ako sa tuhod ko ng napaupo ako sa lupa. I started to cry my heart out. I started to cry all the pain.
"Ang unfair mo! Ang unfair, unfair mo Art!" I cried in the wind while sobbing. "Baket ako lang yung nasasaktan?! Bakit kaya mo na ngumiti? Bakit ako hindi?" I added and heavily cried.
Pinanood ng nagaagaw na kahel at bughaw na langit ang pag-iyak ko. I cried everything.
"Ga-Ganon lang b-ba yung wo-worth k-ko?" I sobbed in the air.
"I-I wa-was the one wh-who supposed to be w-with you! But why am I all alone now?!" I cried even harder.
Nahihirapan na ako huminga dahil sa paghikbi pero nung akala ko naubos na ang luha ko ay hindi pa pala. Nanlabo na rin ang paningin ko sa sobrang pag-iyak.
"Kailan ba ako mabubuo ulit?" I whispered.
"Ang hirap na kasi e. I am so fucking tired, I'm so tired of being strong! Pero kung hindi ako magiging malakas... sino gagawa nun para sa akin?!" I asked the wind, like it would reply.
"Who would be strong for me, when I could not be... already?" I asked loudly.
I remembered my family, Severus, Dad and Mom... "Ahhh... baket ako ba?" I cried, remembering the, sucks. Kasi mas naalala ko na nagiisa ako. Na kapag hindi ako lalaban, walang ng lalaban para sa akin.
"Severus, where are you? You told me you would be here in all of my heartbreaks. But where are you now?" I asked the wind, and sobbed. "When will you bring my brother back?" I asked the heavens this time.
"Ang daya daya niyo naman eh! Baket ako lang?! Ako na lang lagi yung mag-isa. Yung tinatapon. Yung loser! Wala ng nakakakita. Pero pagod na pagod na pagod na ako!" I shouted and blamed the wind.
"Pagod na ako maging malakas!" I cried.
"Then stop." A voice from behind said.
I froze and quickly wiped my tears. I was about to look at who was that but it hugged me.
"Wh-Who are you?" I asked.
I felt him shrugged, and felt his chin above my head. Tangkad niya naman. "I just can't see a girl crying, in thin air. You look stupid." He said,
I felt his body behind my back, he was hugging me, "You don't need to be harsh. If you cannot be strong, then stop. Rest. Then comeback again when you are fully ready." He calmly explained.
Tears started to rushed from my eyes, "I can't." And waved my head in dismay.
"Resting, doesn't mean you stopped what you have fight for, it just like sleeping so your body can recover. But rest so your heart will recover too." He said. This stranger is so weird. But still.
"The world is too harsh, be kind to yourself. Lady." He said and broke from the hug.
"Be good to your heart. Nagiisa lang yan. Nag iisa lang yung 'ikaw', so better not hurt or else you'll lose you.." he sounded slang trying to speak in Filipino.
"Thank you." I whispered and I heard his footsteps as he walked away.
I was about to catch him but he's way too far, all I see was his retreating back and nothing else. So I was left alone, with my broken heart.
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