Kapitel 16: Hug me
*Jisoo's POV*
It was hard for me to help Jin at first because he wouldn't accept the fact that he could no longer see. He wanted to do everything by himself. He broke a glass vase that was full of water and flowers and stepped on the broken pieces resulting in his left foot getting cut. Being the stubborn male that he was, he bent down to pick up the broken glass pieces and also cut his right hand. I worried led him back to his bed and cleaned up his wounds. I cleaned the cut on his foot first and wrapped it in some bandages before moving to the deep cut in the palm of his hand. He winces in pain as I gently dabbed the blood away.
"Jin, I need you to trust me. I'm your nurse and I will take care of you. If there is anything you need just ask me."
"I am just blind. My arms and legs are perfectly fine. I can still do everything myself."
"I know you can, but I can assist you so let me. There's nothing wrong with asking for help when you need it," I calmly replied back to the male. He blankly stares off into space as I finish cleaning the cut and wrapped it. His eyes glistening as he spoke.
"I'm sorry Minji. It's just that.." I noticed that his voice cracked a bit and he closed his eyes.
"I never thought this would happen to me. Everything was going well. I was going to get engaged to the woman I love. I was happy. But then I killed my father.... and becoming blind was my punishment."
I wrapped my arms around him and he silently wept into my shoulder.
"It was an accident Jin. It wasn't your fault."
He wraps his long arms around my waist as he buried his face deeper into my neck as he continued to cry.
"Shhh.. There, there," I patted his back and hummed a tune that Yoongi Oppa had written. He would often sing and comfort me with this song whenever I was sad or needed a hug.
'geunyang nal an-ajwo naleul jom an-ajwo
amu mal malgoseo naege dallyeowajwo
oelobgo bul-anhagiman han mam-eulo
ileohge neol gidaligo issjanh-a
nan neoleul salanghae nan neoleul salanghae
gin chimmug sog-eseo soli nae oechilge
eoliseoggo nayaghagiman han nae ma-eum-eul'
*translation is down in the author's note and in the MV at the beginning of the chapter*
I silently rocked the crying boy from side to side in my arms. Once his crying stopped, he shyly pulls away from me.
"Thank you Minji. I really needed the hug and comfort. You know you have a beautiful singing voice," he smiled warmly towards me.
"Thank you. You can hug me whenever you like if it will make you feel better," I blushed and answered him. He nodded and I told him it was time to rest. After the hug session, he started trusting me more and began letting me help him.
My breathing problem had also decrease the more I spent time with Jin. With him not being able to see me for who I really was and thinking that I was someone else helped me to calm myself down when I was near him. My heart didn't stop racing though whenever I saw him.
A week had passed since our hugging incident and he asked me about Sunni. I had been telling him that she wasn't allowed visitors and she couldn't leave her room yet. Today was no exception.
"Good morning Jin. How are you feeling today?"
"Morning Minji. I'm okay, but I think I will be better if Sunni comes to see me. Have you heard anything about her yet?"
I bit my nails nervously not know what to say to him.
"Uhhh... Not really..."
"Can you go ask her to come visit me? I really miss her."
His pleading eyes were moist and I couldn't say no to those eyes anymore. I didn't know where she was or what she had been doing, but I told myself that I was going to find her somehow and bring her to see Jin.
"Sure thing Jin. I'll try my best to get her to come see you, but after you finish eating first. You don't want to worry Sunni do you?"
He sat up and I placed the lunchbox that I had cooked this morning on his table in front of him. I made Kimbap, rice porridge and rolled eggs for him.
When I opened up the lunch box, the aroma filled the entire room.
"Hmm, this smells yummy," Jin inhaled the air with his eyes closed. His stomach begins to rumble and I couldn't help but giggle at him.
His ears instantly turned red and he smiled awkwardly to me.
"Sorry, it's just that I've been eating hospital food for the past week and this smells really good. Did you cook this?"
"Yeah, I cooked it for you knowing you were getting sick of the food in this hospital."
He smiled brightly towards me before his hands started wandering the table for the chopstick. I quickly picked up the chopstick and handed it to him. He picked up a piece of the rolled egg first. He took a bite and his eyes widen as he moaned out in utter delight.
"Wow! This is delicious Minji."
I blushed and smiled at his compliment and waited for him to try the other food as well. He went to the kimbap next and stuffs it into his mouth.
"This is yummy too," he said with his mouth full of kimbap.
"Try the rice porridge too. It'll be good for you to eat something warm."
I grabbed the spoon next to the bowl and handed it to Jin. He automatically takes the spoon from me and took a big bite. His face didn't light up. Instead, he had a rather confusing look upon his face. He kept moving the food inside his mouth before finally swallowing it.
"What's wrong? Does it not taste good?" I asked.
I took the spoon from his hand and took a bite of the rice porridge. It didn't taste bad at all. It tastes just like all the other rice porridge that I had made.
"It tastes fine though. Is it not to your liking?" I asked him again.
"Min Jisoo..."
I froze in place. My heart hammered loudly inside my chest.
"W-who??" I stammered to him.
"It tastes like Min Jisoo's rice porridge," he finished his sentence. I let out a breath of relief and cleared my throat before giving the spoon back to Jin. He took it and ate the bowl of rice porridge within seconds.
"The food was really good Minji. Thank you for cooking. It was much needed," he said as he put the last rolled egg into his mouth.
"You're welcome."
I couldn't help but be curious as to why he remembered how my rice porridge tastes like. It's been over a month now and he could still tell it was mine.
"So ummm, w-who is Min Jisoo?" I hesitantly asked him.
I could see a small smile forming on his lips.
"Min Jisoo is my girlfriend's friend. They both went to high school together."
I smiled as he talked about me. He didn't forget about me as he remembered everything that happened between us.
"She was a cute and adorable girl but... she lies."
My heart was immediately crushed. I bit my lip hard to stop them from trembling.
"I had caught her smoking right in front of me, yet she still denied that it was her cigarette. I didn't mind that she smoked. I was just a little disappointed that she lied about it not being hers. I'm not a big fan of liars. Girls have lied to me and was only attracted to me because of my money. Then I met Sunni. She was different from all those other girls."
Sunni is the same Jin. She doesn't love you. And I didn't lie to you about smoking...But I am lying to you right now...
"O-oh...." That was all that I could muster out of my mouth.
"With Jisoo being Sunni's friend, I decided to make it work with her since she is a part of Sunni's life. She used to work for us too, but she suddenly quit out of nowhere. I was a little sad when Sunni told me she left. I had forgiven her for lying and I thought we were good friends already yet she didn't even bother to say goodbye to me."
I didn't quit. Sunni fired me.
"I thought about contacting her to see how she was doing and ask why she suddenly quit, but I decided against it. If she considered me as a friend, she would have said something to me. But I haven't seen or heard anything from her since the day she quit."
He looked sad and I was the source of that sadness in his eyes right now. I must have hurted him by not saying anything to him.
"Sometimes, things aren't the way they seem Jin. She probably had an issue that she couldn't tell you so she left suddenly."
"Yeah, maybe. I hope she is doing well though."
A small smile dangled at the corner of my mouth seeing him worry about me, but all that just might shatter if he ever finds out about Minji being the same person as Jisoo. So I hung onto the lie and bit my tongue shut from telling him the truth.
To Be Continued...
AUTORENGEDANKEN 
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Shookieillegirl The romanized lyrics above translate to the following.
'Just hug me, please hug me
Just run to me without a word
With a lonely and anxious heart
Like this I wait for you
I love you, I love you
I'll shout out from this long silence
My foolish and weak heart'
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