Kapitel 5: Regret Paul

The brilliant beams of light extending from clouds that hits my face wakes me up. My head feels hurt. I know it is the effect of hangover. I slowly move my body to get out from the bed when suddenly the spots of blood on the bedsheet catch my attention. I look around and saw Alexander on my left sleeping on the floor.

Althea is still sleeping. She was half naked and I can see clearly her soft glowing skin. Half of my white soft blanket was covering half of her body. In an instant, I close my eyes after scanning her clothes including undergarments scattered on the floor. All of a sudden I realize that she was fully naked right now. The worst thing I am sure is, there was something happened between us. The blood on the bedsheet is enough to prove that something mysterious happened between us last night.

I hardly squeeze my head trying to remember what happened. But I can't remember anything nor think logically.

I carefully hold the upper edge of the blanket and pull it slowly to cover the upper parts of her body. She slightly moves that startled me for a minute.

I get up from the bed slowly to avoid waking her up. The idea for not taking the responsibility suddenly pop up. While Alexander is still snoring, I remove his t-shirt and carried him to my bed.

I hurriedly pick up the clothes I wore last night on the floor. My head still hurts and I feel thirsty and craving for something. Silently, I open the door and went outside going to the kitchen. Passing through the living room, I saw Maria and John lying on the sofa. While Rose is sleeping on the floor with using her jacket as a mat.

Everybody are still sleeping except me who was now fully awake. I open the refrigerator and pick up one bottle of water. I pull the high chair in the bar and seated. I was trying to recall what happened last night but it only cause more pain in my head. As far as I can remember, I went to my room first and as soon as I've got to the bed, I fall asleep.

Base on the situation right now, I regret for agreeing Alexander and Rey to have a party. Only if time machine exist in this world, without any hesitation I would like to turn the clock counterclockwise ang go back on time when we had our first meeting.

In the midst of thinking thoroughly, I heard Althea's voice shouting from the room. I know why she is hysterical right now. I took her virginity. Realizing the fact makes me nut. I know this is not my first time taking a girl on the bed who is still a virgin. But this time is different. Mostly it happened because girls were usually forcing me to do it until I cannot resist them.

I hardly pull the hair on my nape because I don't know what should I do. Should I enter the room and apologize to Althea? Or should I blame her for entering my room knowing that she was not drunk last night? Or should I leave the situation and wait for the consequences?

I heard Maria talking. Maybe when Althea screamed also awakens her. I remained seated and thinking for the best solution how to solve the problem.

John, whose calling my name, disturbs me. He is asking me to go to the living room. It was exactly when we are in the living room when Althea went out from my room. And I just witness her tears falling from her eyes. All of a sudden, I felt guilty for what happened.

None of us talk upon seeing the non-stop tears from her eyes. We are like a statue displayed. I know her friends have already an idea on what had happened when Alexander came out from my room without wearing his t shirt.

Althea feel the presence of Alexander at her back. Maria tried to call Althea calmly but it seems she heard nothing. She continues her way to the main door without looking to any of us. And she went out leaving her two friends without any words.

Alexander seated on the lounge chair beside Rose. While Maria and John are staring to each other like blaming their self for not letting go Althea who wanted to leave first last night. And I remained standing feeling the sense of guilt.

"I'm.... I'm.... really sorry" I said.

"No. I should be the one to say that. This is my fault." Alexander defended.