Kapitel 8: Confession?
When I reached home, I saw that Hyung was outside of the gate. I walked passed him and try to open the gate to get inside but he caught my wrist and started to pull me to a playground nearby. It was the same playground we used to play at when we were younger. I followed along as he led the way, not stopping until we reached the swings where he used to push me.
I saw little 5-year-old Hyung pushing 4-year-old me on the swing.
"Higher Hyung! I want to fly high into the sky!"
"Okay, nae dongsang. I will take you up into the sky one day."
I blinked and the vision that I saw vanished on me. Hyung finally lets go of my wrist but he didn't turn around to face me. He was breathing slowly but heavily. I didn't know what he was thinking at the moment.
"Hyung..."
He turns around and before I knew it he had pulled me into a tight hug. I wanted to hug him back. I wanted to confess to him how much I loved him...but... but...
-There's a boy in here. This is the women's bathroom.
- Hani, don't call me Oppa. I want you to call me Hyung instead.
My eyes started to tear up on me. I had to fight back all the urge to hug him back. He doesn't like me.
How stupid can you be to think that a hug from Hyung means that he likes you?
I pushed him away as I refused his hug.
"Hani-ah.. I..."
"Where's Mi-Youngie? Didn't you wait for her?" I asked changing the subject on him.
"She went home today. She said she had some things to take care of at home. Hani, you left the movie an hour ago. I came home and you weren't even home yet. Not to mention that you turned off your phone too. Don't you know how worried I was?" He said as he moved closer towards me.
I automatically backed up as he moved forward. He continued to move closer until my back ended up against the pole of the swing.
"Hani, I need to hear from you. That night, when I first came back to Korea, I had a dream that you came to visit me when I was asleep. Did you really come to see me or was it just a dream?" He whispered so softly to me. His gaze never leaving mine.
"And earlier, why did you run away to the bathroom?" He asked again.
"Don't you feel anything when I'm this close to you?"
My heart crazily hammered and I could feel his warm breath as his face slowly moved closer towards mine. I closed my eyes and waited for whatever it is that is coming my way.
-So, you're saying that you don't like Jimin Oppa? In all the years that you two have been talking and keeping in touch? Not even the tiniest bit of feeling?
- Is it okay if I like Jimin Oppa then?
Mi-Youngie.....
I opened my eyes and push Jimin Hyung away.
"I-it was just a dream. I-I never came to see you that night," I lied while trying hard to hold back the tears that were threating to fall.
"I went to the bathroom because I needed to use the bathroom. Why else would I have gone?" I lied once again.
"And..." I forced a smile on my face as I lied again to answer his last question.
"Why would I feel anything towards you Hyung? You're like a brother to me," I managed to forcefully laugh out loud at Hyung.
The look on his face, I couldn't tell what his expression was.
"That's all I needed to hear from you," he said as he walked back towards the house leaving me alone to finally cry my heart out.
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***Jimin's POV***
Hani texted me an hour ago that she was going to come home so why wasn't she home yet? I called her so many times too but her phone was off. I was so worried. What if something happened to her?
I looked up from my phone and saw a figure walking towards me. As the figure came closer, I noticed it was Hani. My heart finally relaxed a bit when I saw that she was perfectly fine. I watched as she walked passed me to open the gate. I grabbed her writs and started walking towards the playground.
What am I doing?
I dragged her until we reached the set of swings that we played at when we were younger. My heart was racing. It keeps beating fast because of her.
Could it be that...
I let go of her hand.
"Hyung..."
Before I knew it, I had turned around and hugged her. I hugged her tight. I was afraid that if I let go, she will disappear on me like earlier. She suddenly pushes me away.
"Hani-ah.. I..."
"Where's Mi-Youngie? Didn't you wait for her?"
"She went home today. She said she had some things to take care of at home. Hani, you left the movie an hour ago. I came home and you weren't even home yet. Not to mention that you turned off your phone too. Don't you know how worried I was?" I replied as I inched closer to her.
What is she so afraid of that she is backing away from me?
"Hani, I need to hear from you. That night, when I first came back to Korea, I had a dream that you came to visit me when I was asleep. Did you really come to see me or was it just a dream?"
Please tell me you were really there that night. Tell me it wasn't a dream...
I thought about earlier when our lips almost touch during the movie.
"And earlier, why did you run away to the bathroom?"
Tell me it's because I made you nervous. That it wasn't just my heart that was beating fast then.
I stared at her lips wanting to feel all of her tonight.
I think I'm in love with you Hani...
"Don't you feel anything when I'm this close to you?" I asked once again. I wanted to taste her. I wanted to kiss her lips. It looked so soft and I wanted to devour her right here.
Tell me that you like me... Please, Hani... Tell me that you feel the same way I do...
She closed her eyes as I slowly made my way towards her lips. Our lips slightly brushed when she suddenly opens her eyes and pushes me away.
"I-it was just a dream. I-I never came to see you that night."
You're lying...
"I went to the bathroom because I needed to use the bathroom. Why else would I have gone?"
Liar...
"And... why would I feel anything towards you Hyung? You're like a brother to me."
-Jimin Hyung is like a brother to me. I don't think I would want to ruin that bond with Hyung.
How I wished everything she said was a lie but who am I kidding? She said so herself that I am like a brother to her. She doesn't like me. My heart broke into a million pieces.
"That's all I needed to hear from you," I said and rushed off before she could see the tears that fell from my eyes.
To Be Continued...
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