Kapitel 48: Disgusted

Lilac's POV

After what Hazel told me, I couldn't help but feel a bit scared by those girls but I don't really care. I'm here to study not to play. Why should I waste my time thinking about what they are gonna do to me? All I need is to focus on my studies and achieve my dream so that I could finally be free from my so-called family. The other day, I got a phone call from home and it makes me angry to hear what they say.

Flashback

"Hello am I speaking to Lilac?" My mom asked.

"Yes mom. I'm here. What do you need?" I replied.

"You ungrateful child. Why didn't call anyone of us when you reach there? Do you know how worried we were? We thought you had been kidnap or something." My mom scolded me.

"Are you sure that you guys are worried about me? Then why didn't you guys come and send me off as well? You let me come to the airport on my own but you care so much about whether I'm safe in Korea or not." I said,

"Why should I be worried about you when you're in the country? Aren't you a grown up? It's obvious you can take care of yourself." My mom said.

"Listen to your own words and think about it before you tell me that you actually care about me. You only care for my brother and sister. You can't wait for me to go far away from this family so that you could lessen your burden. So stop saying that you actually care about me. You just want me to go back and be your slave so that I could help you out with the housework. Let me tell you one thing. I will never ever go back to that house again. You guys can throw all the things that you don't want from my room. I've already took everything I needed. That room can be renovated to become someone else's room. I won't go back already because I just don't know how to face all of you. I had enough after all these years of the treatment you guys gave me." I said and hanged up the phone.

-End of flashback-

Thinking back about the so-called caring towards me makes me felt disgusted about my family. I just want to be far away from them. They are the biggest toxic that I want to throw out of my life. Now what I have done might be called unfilial by other but I don't want to care anymore. I really had enough. I want to be myself again and not a puppet. I am unwilling to let people control me anymore and it won't happen again. As I was still giving motivation for myself, my phone ringtone rang notifying me there's a message. I unlocked my phone and see that it was a message from Jung Kook.

From: Jung Kook

Hey Lilac. You wanna hang out with us at the dorm again today?

To: Jung Kook

Sorry Jung Kook I can't. I have some work to do after school. Maybe tomorrow since it's weekend.

From: Jung Kook

Sure.