Kapitel 34: Clear and out
In her years of living moments, Jay had never once had an opportunity or ...…to be precise, any stimulation or curiosity to progress her side emotions. Actions never mentioned, not even words. There was never any interest.
But this annoying guy.
Clingy and chatty.
How the fuck did he manage to snap her outta of her mental true self only being just him? With no pressure of therapist, psychiatrist or counsellors only her regular dosages of triggers.
Jay had a huge feeling under her nerves too, that he's the only one who can destroy away this cloudy dust within her forever, get rid of her other mind.
That one who hasn't shown up for a while now.
Jay was scared of it!
She was scared of herself and that moment of that specific mind space.
Not knowing what it might compel her to do next time.
Smoking out too much of her inner voices at once, had almost ended all of her logics too. There was possibly no way she would understand what Ace could actually mean or want from her. The blue-eyed boy has always been very casual and open towards her, but she had never tried to sneak deeper. It wasn't necessary.
But Ace's emotions had exceeded hers, whereas she has not even had the chance or the moment to learn the specific.
Ace's last clearly ticked her, forcing her to wonder what exactly he expected, something more. His eyes had turned calmer than before, but a little piteous from her own words.
Did she mess up again?
Not new, when she's never aware of what she says.
She just speaks whatever accumulates in her mind.
Her own mind!
Suddenly he blinked and opened his eyes to transform in to sharp ones. He looked at her, but careful not to lose it anymore.
"Looks like I haven't cleared it out yet, not yet the checkpoint", he stated," But it's impossible for me to confine it anymore when you fucking say that out loud".
- Check point?
- Yes.
Jay was blank lost again. Her eyes requested to explain a bit more.
- Jay, I'm sorry I went all out on you. I know based on your current condition I should've been more patient. But I just couldn't when you- …...you said that. You just, fuck, went and offered me your damn body!
- Was I wrong somewhere?
- It is not your body I want Jay, not only that. And certainly, I don't want us just to be ones where we have a systematic relationship.
- Then?
- Don't, say it with that face. Feels I'm compelling you to give it me. I don't blame you for getting it though .... I should've taken the time ...
- Ace, you're being strange.
- Right! You made me fucking like that.
- I did?
- This infiltration, isn't good. Never thought could get one in this lifetime with all the sins I've committed.
Jay was taken aback. Ace had never once directed his actions as crime or sin. He always seemed free of regrets or had a prideful need of what he did. For himself or for Jay. No shock absorbed or guilt felt. If this the first time she's heard him sighing on his job, the reason better be up to it. Jay hoped it isn't him.
Ace had taken a pause, straight glaring in Jay's eyes without blinking. She felt submissive under the strong eyes on her. He always made her feel like that.
"Jay- Jaylynne", suddenly Ace switched to her full name," You – made me fall for you. I'm in love with you!", he said barely with any feel in his voice. Cold and straight.
He, taking Jay's full stare with a firm face like that, is something that would not fail to even shake up the Jay with lack of emotions. He was serious and intensifying at that moment. His perfect built was raising and falling visibly, exposing his nervousness. He didn't falter once at the confession, leaving Jay in a state of bewilderment. More like, her eyes had turned goofy, staring like a fool with an opened mouth.
"Stop staring!", Ace scolded and averted his eyes too," Not with those warm-less icy ones. Too unresisting for my likes".
But Jay had no other in stock to wear.
"Is this ...", she started with a low voice," .... allowed? The likes of our kind, are we allowed this?", she came clearer.
Ace was shunned at the inquiry.
He sighed angrily," We are not animals Jay", he stated," We don't need restrictions, just because- coz we are not like those normal bitches! Being this way doesn't put a ban on us, or forbid us to do what we're supposed to.It's like being treated no more than a homo. We just, gain it rarely...".
Jay nodded understandingly.
"And if before you ask me like a typical person, that why is it you of all people ...….", Ace went on," ...I still have no definition to that. These things always occur on invisible forces you see"
- So, you fell for me unconsciously, and unconditionally?
- Unconditionally, yes! Unconsciously, no! I was well aware from the start from when it had clicked between us.
- Well, so what I'm supposed to do now?
The ocean orbs cleared a look at her with raised eyebrows. This was completely expected of her, since she had received no fair opportunity to experience this side of life. Not meaning any offence, she is just a little clueless, that's it.
The priority is to scavenge out Ace's position in her mind as well as heart, only then she can be allowed to progress. Ace still couldn't find a chance to divert her feelings, towards him. It took him an effort just to awaken them, polishing them would be a hell lot tougher. But changing her level is worth it till this point.
- What do you feel ....err, no! What do you think when you spend time, with me?
Ace went off suddenly.
"Troublesome", Jay shot with no hesitation. Ace's face was about to withdraw when she added," at first! I stopped minding the drag later, when your words .... started to make me feel...kinda weird!", she confessed.
- WEIRD???
- Well, how should I put this. My back, my spine? They felt light and shivering.
Oh! An onset of a change in personality.
She has started to move.
- And now?
- Since that day, it is as if I look forward to this. To us, meeting. I don't feel the desperate urge, but I prefer to leave any other possible location when you call me out. I'm at ease, when you come in to view.
Ace looked at the interestingly brown flooring, just to hide his smile at the so-called serious conversation. He was practically fighting a war to control his blush. Even though it appeared more like a smirk. He ran his fingers through his temple, rubbing them to gain temper.
Slowly he spoke," Good progress. Things might actually get better from this", saying he reached ahead and gave a gentle pat on her head as a console of praise. She is herself unaware of what she feels.
Jay placed her hand on her head, where Ace had ruffled her, finding the sentiment pretty warm," What do you mean?".
"Trust me, not like I'm very experienced. But they say that the most beautiful moment is time, is the period when you start to fall for someone", he said tilting his head and offering a kinder smile.
The words appeared completely hollow to Jay; she could only stare blankly. Her insides wanted to understand every coating of his lines; she didn't want to be left in dark. Also, this sudden burst of her emotions surprised her a little.
"I'll trust you", she said innocently.
Ace nodded and almost switched to another personality with the change of vision in his gaze, eyeing a smirk at Jay. His blue orbs mischievous. It was searching for trouble again. Jay scanned it and quickly braced herself, competing with his devilish gaze with her cold ones.
Ace was staring at her lips. The natural pink lips had grown redder after the kiss, it was a bit swollen too. Jay's lips were genetically soft and bouncy. They were cold, suiting to her personality. When they had shared their saliva, Ace stole her taste to satisfy himself. He really didn't hold back on her during that. The iced tea had lingered on them, and it light sweet.
He grinned thinking of his next pick up line," You bite!".
Jay wasn't at all guarded for that at all. She blinked and flinched forward trying to grasp him. What the hell does he even mean by that fuck shit???
He's sprouting nonsense again.
Ace started winning points on that as he continued," Do it next time too. Feels good", saying he traced his finger through his lower lip, still throwing an irresistible smirk. Exposing his perfect set of canines, he bit on to them and pulled it in seductively slowly licking through them.
The person opposite to him realized that it's better not to understand his actions that soon. Perhaps she should just not trust him.
Jay was clueless, but not dumb. Her senses and logic caught up fast.
That was a clear sign of a class A pervert, nothing else.
"Bitch!", she used the common word for compliment and insult, and diverted her rolling eyes.
Ace just let out a chuckle at that.
He's teaching her well.
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