Kapitel 25: 25 It Meant Nothing

"Let me get a shower first so I can get change. This dress is really uncomfortable." She went to their room to have a shower.

As she undressed, she looked at herself in their big mirror inside the bathroom. There were some kiss marks in her body, it's not a lot but if she will sleep with Eric to consume their first night of marriage, he will see them and it will cause big trouble. Upon washing and scrubbing herself, she noticed a mark on her thigh, a couple near her breasts, on her hip and a faint one on her neck. Luckily her hair can cover the one on her neck.

She really must avoid close interaction with Eric because she wouldn't be able to explain those marks. How can Cheng Ze mark her like that, it was beyond her wildest dreams. Did he do it on purpose? Or he did it because he didn't know he was actually doing it?

After her long shower, she pats dry herself gently and wore a grey turtleneck sweater sleeveless dress that was knee-high, as always, she looked gorgeous. She let her shoulder-length hair down to cover her neck more and hide the marks more as she felt that Eric might still see it, it was her guilt that made her behaved in that way. After checking herself one more time in the big mirror, she then headed downstairs to see Eric in the kitchen.

Eric was feeding Sofia when Ji An came to the kitchen. 'This is my family. They are my family.' She thought and tried to convince herself that what happened between her and Cheng Ze meant nothing to her. "Hello, my little angel." She kissed her daughter lovingly before talking to Eric, "Eric I'm going back to school soon. What will be our arrangements for Sofia?"

Eric gave Ji An a back hug while he left Sofia in her high chair to make sure she was safe. "Well, if she goes with you, you will have to look after her and study at the same time. You might struggle a little bit. To avoid that, I suggest... I'll look after our beautiful daughter and we will visit you at the weekends. I will get her a nanny while I work so she will be well looked after." He inhaled her scent from her hair before continuing, "Oh... And let's get a house... Having Sofia in your flat is a no-no for me. It's too small for you, me, Alice and Sofia." He turned Ji An around so he can see his wife's beautiful face.

"Okay. Whatever you say." She smiled and their forehead was touching each other.

"I'll get it arranged before you leave. We will take you there okay. Sofia will miss you a lot, and I will miss you so so so so much." He kissed her passionately, she accepted his kiss but she didn't respond the way she did with Cheng Ze's.

She was the first one to let go from their passionate kiss, "Hmm... I will miss you too and Sofia." Ji An replied as their lips parted.

"You know, since we got married 8 months ago, we never really slept together. How about we start from there huh?" Eric didn't feel shy telling his wife what his thoughts are. She is his wife after all.

How is she going to refuse him? She has those kiss marks. But it is her duty to fulfil her husbands' desires, but not tonight, she has to make him wait a little longer, "I still have my period." She blurted out an excuse.

"I thought you already had it a week ago?!? You should get it checked out if you're having it again." He has the worried look in his eyes before he touched her face, "Should I call the doctor and let her come here?"

Ji An quickly answered him, "I mean it's not really a lot. It's like spotting. But yeah I will get it checked out. Don't worry about it." She then sat down to eat her food, " Let's eat."

After their breakfast, the three of them went to the living room to relax, talk for a bit and plan their day. As they both smiled brightly, they cuddled on the couch while they let Sofia crawl and play on her mat on the floor. Eric started their conversation by asking her where she wanted to go for their honeymoon but she told him that their honeymoon will have to wait until her next uni break as she can't go travelling during uni days and Eric already knew that. But Eric refused to give up, he suggested going to Scotland since it's not that far and they could celebrate her birthday there as well, his enthusiasm got Ji An to agree saying that she had never been there and agreed that they should go there.

Once they talked about their destination, he told her that he will make all the arrangements needed for their trip. Also, he told her that after her last day in uni, he would pick her up from her university and they will go on their road trip right after.

Right after their conversation regarding their honeymoon plan he couldn't help it and asked Ji An a random question, "Why do I love you so much Ji An? You totally bewitched me from the start!" he cupped her small face and planted a kiss on her nose.

She smiled as he kissed her nose and she held his hand that cupped her face, "Hmmm... Eric, you are my husband and I will never—" she paused and remembered what happened between her and Cheng Ze, she can't continue what she was about to say, to her it wasn't right to tell him that she would never betray him because she already did. In actual fact, her guilt was eating her up as they speak.

Eric was waiting for whatever she was going to say, "Never....? Ji An is something bothering you? You've been like this since you walked down the aisle yesterday. You're spacing out." He couldn't stop himself for bringing it up as it was so obvious that something is definitely bothering her and he wants to know what it is.

She shrugged it off and replied, "Yeah... I mean no. No! Nothing. It's just that I might not be a good wife to you. I'm still young and you know. You are really good to me and I might hurt you unintentionally."

Eric held her face, lifted it and focused on her eyes, "Hey.. hey.. my love for you... I'm not asking anything in return." He smiled at her lovingly, "I love you because I love you, but there is one thing I will ask from you.." he brushed his thumbs on her cheeks.

"What is it?" her sweet voice and her calm face were enough to pacify Eric. She is his world, everything he owns will only belong to her and Sofia.

"Don't leave me. Never divorce me." His eyes were pleading and his voice was almost begging her, "I will accept all your imperfection but I can never accept a divorce from you, it will kill me Ji An." He took her hands to his lips and kissed them, "I will be the best husband you can ever have." with his eyes still begging her.

Uni will start again very soon. The four of them, Eric, Alice, Jian and Sofia are in Eric's car, he drove them to send them to the new house Eric bought for Ji An. To Eric, everything is for Ji An, his love for her is immeasurable. He wants to make her life more comfortable and he wanted to give her everything she will desire in this lifetime.