Kapitel 21: Chapter 21 : Go back
Kasey's POV
"I love you Kasey, I still do, I still love you"
"R-ryouma?" nauutal at gulat kong sambit.
"I know that, what I did to you before was unforgivable but still Kasey, I want us back, for the past moths that you were away I began to realize your true worth for me, I realized that I love you, and I admit that I was a jerk for what I did, and I'm sorry for that but now I promised that I will do my best to repent for that" he said while he was looking straight in my eyes.
After hearing what he have said, I don't know what to say or what should I feel, but there's one thing I'm sure of. That is, I'm mad at him.
All of those painful memories are coming back and replaying in my mind, all of those together with the pain I felt that time.
"you're asking me if we can go back?, you're sorry?, Ryouma do you even know what you are saying?, do you even consider my feelings?" I said as my tears began to fall
"Kasey?" nag aalala nyang sambit at saka nya pinahid ang mga luha na umaagos sa mga mata ko.
"Do you even know how hard it has been for me?, do you even know how much I cried those whole time, how much I wish that you were there for me, Ryouma I was expecting that you were the one who will be there to comfort me when everyone in our class started to avoid and be cold towards me, when Ayase, my one and only friend starts to avoid me too, where are you when those crazy seniors who is crazy in love at you are bullying me? You're not there, because you were just at one corner watching them and me , I was also wishing that you were there to protect me from those malicious looks that the boys in school throwing at me, from their lewd conversations at me when the news about me being assaulted and almost have been raped my that crazy psycho stalker, but where are you? Where are you, where are you at those time when I needed you the most?, huh?!" pagpapatuloy, habang patuloy pa ring tumutulo ang aking mga luha
"I'm sorry Kasey, I'm very sorry" tangi nyang sambit habang patuloy na pinupunas ang mga luha ko
"do you even know how much traumatizing is it?, do you even know how much stressed I have been, how depressed I've been?, you don't know?, because you don't know a single thing and you don't want to know, and then one day you called me just to say that you want a break up, and little did I know is that the girl you choose over me was my friend, Ayase..... Do you know what?, at that time I tried to kill my self so that I could be free from all the pain" I continued
"Kasey, I'm really sorry, it was just that, I was confuse, I don't know whom I should believe in, but Kasey now that I'm here asking you a second chance, can we please start again?, I promise I will protect you this time, I will do anything for you, just... Just come back to me, please?" he said
"I don't know anymore Ryouma, to be honest I don't feel anything for you anymore" sabi ko saka pinunas ang basang basa ko ng mga pisngi at pilit na pinipigil ang mga luha na nagbabadya pang pumatak.
"I'll make you fall for me again" madiin nitong sabi
"I don't think you can" madiin ko ding sabi.
Then I stood up and started to walk away from this place.
"Kasey, I love you, please remember that" he said as he grab my right arm to stop me.
"let go" madiin at ma-awtoridad kong sambit.
So he did, he let go of my hands.
Umalis na ako sa lugar na iyon dahil hindi ko na kaya pa ang manatili doon ng kahit na ilang segundo man lamang. Pakiramdam ko ay sasabog na ang puso ko sa halohalong pakiramdaman na nararamdaman ko, may galit, inis, lungkot at pagkadismaya.
Dahil sa wala ako ngayon sa wisyo ay naglakad lang ako ng naglakad, wala akong kasiguraduhan kung nasaan na ba ako, halos dalawang oras na din akong nagpapalakadlakad ng mapansin ko na nasa tabing dagat na pala ako.
Mabuti pa siguro na dito na muna ako magpahinga bago ako bumalik ng bahay, gabi na din at mag aalala na naman sila lolo kapag mas nagpagabi pa ako ng uwi.
"HUY!" sigaw ni Cherry sa tenga ko
"ano ba yun?, di mo naman kailangan sumigaw ah?" naiinis kong sambit
"paanong hindi ako sisigaw eh, kanina pa kita tinatawag pero wala tulala ka pa rin, tapos tingnan mo nga yang mga mata mo, namumugto, umiyak ka ano?" pang uusisa ni Cherry
"hindi ah, napuwing lang ako kanina kaya ganyan ang mata ko" pagsisinungaling ko
"napuwing?, ano yun parehas mong mata ang napuwing?" dagdag nito
"ah basta, matutulog na ako, masakit ang ulo ko kaya bukas ka na lang mangulit" pag iiwas ko sa usapan
"Kasey!" singhal nito sa akin
"Cherry tama na yan, hayaan mo muna si Kasey" saway ni Denise
Thank you Denise!, sa wakas matatahimik din ang paligid.
"sige na nga, magpahinga ka na para bukas may energy ka, dahil mamasyal uli tayo, di kasi tayo naka pasyal kanina kasi naman knock out ang mga lolo at lola mo" mahinahong sabi ni Cherry
"okay" tanging sagot ko bago nagtalukbong ng kumot at saka sila tinalikuran.
- The next day -
"Kasey tara dun tayo, madami akong nakitang dress na magaganda!"saad ni
"babe hindi ka pa ba napapagod?, kanina pa tayo paikot-ikot at labas-masok sa mga boutique nangangawit na rin ang braso ko sa kabibitbit ng mga paper bags, di ka pa tapos mamili?" reklamo ni Kris sa nobya
"babe, hindi pa dahil hindi pa ako nakakabili ng mga pasalubong at souvenirs, kaya tara na dun dali na babe, huh?" pagpapa-cute ni Cherry kay Kris.
"ok, sa isang kondisyon?" sambit n Kris na may mga pilyong ngiti
"ano yun?"
"kiss muna!" sambit nito at saka ngumuso sa harap ni Cherry
"Magtigil nga kayong dalawa!, nasa public place tayo!" saway ni Claude sa dalawa
"inggit ka lang, mag girlfriend ka na rin kasi" pikon na sambit ni Kris
"pake ko!, tandaan mo walag forever, mag be-break din kayo!" singhal ni Claude.
Ngayon ko lang nalaman na sobrang kulit pala talaga ni Claude ibang iba sa kung ano sya kapag nasa school na, pag nasa school model student sya pero ngayon isang makulit at masayahing Claude ang nasa harap namin.
"Bitter ka lang!, tara na nga Kris" pikon na sambit ni Cherry.
At ayun nagpatuloy lang kami sa pag iikot at pamimili ng mga pasalubong, syempre hindi mawawala ang food trip. Kahit na pagod na kami sa kakalakad ay tuloy parin kami sa paglabas-masok sa mga tindahan, at saka hindi kasi ramdam ang pagod kung sobrang ingay, kulit at ligalig ng mga kasama mo.
Nauna na akong lumabas sa souvenir shop dahil ang sakit na ng ulo ko sa ingay nila, nang....
"Kasey" narinig kong sambit mula sa di kalayuan.
At ng hanapin ko kung kanino nagmula ang boses na iyon, walang ano-ano ay may bigla na lang humawak sa braso ko, kaya halos mapatalon na ako sa gulat.
"Ano ba naman Ryouma!, balak mo ba akong patayin sa nerbyos?!" inis kong sabi
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you" matapat nitong sabi
"what do you want?"
"you, I want you back" diretso nitong sagot
"that would be impossible!" singhal ko sa kanya
I was about to go back where the other is, when Ryouma suddenly pulled me closer to him. Closer, to the extent that our face are now an inch apart.
"w-what are you d-doing?" utal kong sabi habang pilit na inilalayo ang muka ko muka sa kanya at satitig nya
"I'm doing this"
And then in just a blink of an eye, his lips are now on my lips.
But I don't feel anything unlike when Nice kissed me yesterday. Thus, with all the strength I've got I pulled myself out from his hug and from his kiss.
"I-I'm sorry, I didn't mean to kiss you, it was just an impulse, I'm really sorry Kasey" he said as hold my hands
"you don't need to explain, I'm sorry but I have to go, my friends are probably looking for me" I said as cold as the weather today here in Japan.
Then, I turned my back at him and started to walk towards the store where the others is.
But then, wala na sila doon ng makabalik ako. Hindi naman siguro nila ako iniwan o nakalimutan hindi ba?. Kaya naman nagsimula na ako na hanapin sila dahil malamang naman na nasa tabi tabi lang ang mga yun. Ilang minuto pa ang lumipas ay hindi ko pa rin sila makita kaya naman sinubukan ko na silang tawagan, pero hindi naman nila sinasagot, nag cellphone pa sila!.
"K-Kasey-chan!"
Sambit ng isang kahinahinalang lalaki na tumapik sa balikat ko.
Bakit nandito sya? Ganito na ba talaga kaliit ang mundo ngayon?
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