Kapitel 82: Diary-5

After that day, I, Maya could never write what had happened to me. I stopped writing my diary due to the painful incidents which happened after that. It was something I could never tell anyone. Nor did I dare to tell anybody. Now I'm all grown up. I'm doing my degree in Business Administration right now at the prestigious B university at in A city.

Ronnie paused reading, "Wait! What? Maya's a grown up girl now? Business administration? What's happening? She says painful incidents?" Ronnie was perplexed. He continued reading further.

But, I realised that I've undergone enough by burying those dark secrets deep inside me and it's high time, I vent out all the traumatic conditions I underwent as a child. But this is something, I can never ever tell anybody in person. That's when I thought the best option is to write down everything.

Let me begin writing from where I stopped.

That night, I'd the most unforgettable, appalling, ghastly, dreadful…. I guess even if I use all these words collectively too, I'd not be able to describe that experience of my life!!!!

I remember each and everything which happened to such an extent that I've nightmares of that sickening night to this day. I clearly remember I was wearing that Cinderella pink night dress aunt gave me to wear. After she left, that's when I last wrote this diary. Later, I came back to bed and was finding it difficult to sleep.

Approximately ten minutes after that, Gaurav bhaiya knocked at my room door. Without waiting for my answer, he came in, closed the door and bolted it. He tenderly looked at me with loving eyes and said, "Hello baby doll. Are you comfortable here?" He spoke as he came towards the bed.

The innocent me didn't know the beastly intentions behind those tender eyes and sugar coated words of the devil marching forward licking his lips. Since he was my bhaiya, out of respect, I got up to sit since bhaiya was coming. I said, "Hello bhaiya. I'm doing very good here. Thank you. Why haven't you slept yet?" I asked him.

He came and sat at the edge of my bed and started rubbing my legs and told, "My little baby doll must be tired after the journey. So I came to see if you are alright. Also it's a new place. Shall I sleep with you?" He asked me.

I was a very independent girl from before and never troubled anybody for anything. So I said, "No bhaiya. I'm fine. I was about to sleep. It's okay. You don't have to worry about me. You please carry on. I'll sleep."

He said, "No, no baby doll. I'll sleep with you today. From tomorrow you can sleep alone. Come here." Before I knew, he came forward and took me took me in his arms and gave me a chocolate box after that. He said he'll give me as many chocolates as I want and kissed me on my cheeks

Back then, that little me didn't get carried away by the chocolates he gave. But rather, I felt a little strange. Because he didn't stop after that. He continued to kiss me on my other cheek as well. Even when my parents kissed me, they would stop after that. But what was more peculiar was he kissed me on my neck and continued to kiss everywhere.

He said, "You are a very beautiful baby doll who needs to be showered love and kissed like this everywhere..everyday." He continued to leave behind wet kisses all over my face and neck and hands and legs. That child me, didn't even know what was happening. I only felt irritated by it.

He continued in between kisses, "I'm sure nobody has loved you like this before. I'll show you how to be loved my baby doll. Ours is a very special love. You'll ask for it from me everyday from now on baby doll."