Pagkaalis ng asawa ni Lucy, muli niyang niyaya ang naiwan niyang bisita na
umupo sa sofa.
Malamig na ang kapeng inihanda niya kanina kaya gumawa muna siya ulit ng
panibago para sakanilang dalawa.
Masayang nagpasalamat si Lucy at noong sandali ring 'yun, bigla itong
naglabas ng isang business card at ibinigay sakanya.
Kinuha niya ito gamit ang kanyang dalawang kamay. Nakakaintinddi siya ng
English kaya hindi siya nahirapan na basahin ang nakasulat sa card.
Lucy, 31 years old, Psychologist.
Tinago ni Qiao Anhao ang business card at nagsabi rin siya ng ilang bagay
tungkol sakanya. Pero hindi pa man din siya tapos magsalita, biglang ngumiti at
tumungo si Lucy, "Regarding your text messages, I know all about them."
"Nian told me." Nagaalangang pagpapatuloy ni Lucy. Desidido siyang sabihin
kay Qiao Anhao ang lahat pero bago siya magumpisa, humigop muna siya ng
kape. "As for the misunderstanding I created, I offer you my apologies.
However, rest assured, Nian only came to find me purely for business."
"Uh huh..." Alam niyang baka hindi siya maintindihan ni Qiao Anhao kung
magpapaligoy-ligoy siya kaya inisip niyang maigi kung paano niya
maipaparating dito ang punto niya sa pinaka simpleng paraan. "Simply put,
Nian is my patient."
Si Lucy ay isang psychologist at si Lu Jinnian ay isa lang sakanyang mga
pasyente kaya ibig sabihin, kunektado ito sa mental health ni Lu Jinnian...
Biglang nanigas ang buong katawan ni Qiao Anhao at hindi niya makumbinsi
ang sarili niya na tama ang mga naririnig niya.
Naiintindihan ni Lucy kung anong tumatakbo sa isip ni Qiao Anhao kaya ngumiti
lang siya at mahinahong nagpatuoy, "Actually, this is Nian's private matter, and
I promised to keep it a secret, but you have this saying in China, something like
'Whoever hung the bell…"
Hindi na alam ni Lucy ang kasunod kaya tinulungan siya ni Qiao Anhao na
mabuo ang gusto niyang sabihin. "Whoever hung the bell on the tiger's neck
must untie it?"
"Right!" Masayang tumungo si Lucy. "I believe, if you knew about it, then it
would definitely be helpful for Nian."
Sa pagkakataong ito, hindi na sumagot si Qiao Anhao at tumitig nalang siya kay
Lucy.
"I met Nian five months ago. At the time, my husband and I were driving home
when we found him. He drank a lot, so he wasn't very conscious at the time. He
and my husband had known each other for many years and were very good
friends, so we took him home with us.
"He wanted to leave when he sobered up, but my husband desperately tried to
persuade him to stay. Finally, he agreed.
"He's really handsome, and a gentleman. Though he doesn't speak much, but
my husband and I like him a lot. Our Nini also likes him too. Nini is our beautiful
Labrador retriever.
"A week later, I realized that something was off with him. That night, I went out
to a party. It was already three in the morning when I came home. The lights in
his room were lit and his door wasn't shut. I was curious, so I pushed it open to
find that he wasn't asleep and his room was filled with cigarette smoke.
"At the time, I just thought that he was really addicted to smoking, so I tried to
persuade him to quit, but he didn't care." Lucy shrugged her shoulders, then
looked a little helpless. "Though we lived together, we rarely interacted with
him. My husband told me that was just the way he was, so I didn't think much of
it.
"Until one day, I came home from work. Nini saw me, immediately jumped onto
me and grabbed my leg, dragging me to his bedroom while barking at the door.
Nini's personality is very docile. We rarely see her like this, so I realized that
something was wrong. I knocked on the door, but there was no reply. Nini then
started to scratch at the door, and that's when I realized that something wrong,
so I hurriedly went to find the keys, and when I opened the door..."
Biglang natigilan si Lucy sa pagkwekwento at habang nakatingin sa mga mata
ni Qiao Anhao, gumuhit siya ng linya sakanyang pulso bago nagpatuloy, "He
had committed suicide."
Nanlaki ang mga mata ni Qiao Anhao sa sobrang pagkagulat. Biglang kumunot
ang kanyang noo at tinitigan ang mga mata ni Lucy, na parang naniniguro siya
kung tama ang mga narinig niya. Nang maproseso niya ang huli nitong sinabi,
naguguluhan siyang nagtanong, "Suicide?"
Bumilis ang tibok ng kanyang puso at sa sobrang takot, hindi niya na kayang
pakinggan ang magiging sagot ni Lucy.
Sinubukan ni Lu Jinnian na mag-suicide....Bakit naman nito naisipang
magpakamatay...
Habang pinipilit niyang magmukhang kalmado, pahigpit ng pahigpit ang hawak
niya sa tasang nasa kanyang kamay. Wala syang kahit kauntig ideya sa mga
narinig niya kay Lucy kaya noong oras na 'yun, bigla-bigla siyang namutla na
para bang naubusan siya ng dugo.
"Yes, suicide." Sa pagkakataong ito, ang palangiting Lucy ay biglang naging
seryoso. "But luckily, I discovered him just in time. He was temporarily
unconscious and was sent to the hospital for care. There weren't any major
issues, and it didn't leave behind any repercussions.
"That day, my husband didn't rush home from set, so I stayed with Nian in the
hospital whilst he was unconscious. He cried two words..."
Kahit maraming beses ng narinig ni Lucy ang dalawang salitang bukambibig ni
Lu Jinnian, hindi talaga siya marunog mag-Chinese kaya pautal-utal siyang
nagbaybay hanggang sa mabuo niya ang pangalan ni Qiao Anhao.
"Qiao Qiao.
"After he woke, he became even more quiet. The longest time he went without
saying a single word was a week. He loved to randomly stare at one spot in a
daze. He, at that time, didn't eat at all, so he was on an IV drip. However,
because the nurse had to step away after taking the needle out, he didn't know
how to call someone for help, so he lost blood."
Sa puntong ito, pakiramdam ni Qiao Anhao ay wala na siyang mukhang
maiharap kay Lucy kaya bigla siyang yumuko para iwasan ito ng tingin.
"That's when I realized he was severely depressed. His depression was so
serious, little thoughts could trigger suicidal ones. That time, when he tried to
commit suicide by cutting his wrists, perhaps the idea suddenly came to him
whilst he was shaving with a razor.
"Of course, severe depression wouldn't have come from a single event. This
was something that had followed him from his living environment as a child.
However, under normal situation it wouldn't affect him, but perhaps it was some
kind of thought that had triggered him.
"I tried so many ways to communicate with him, but they were all useless. Then,
I thought about your name. At first, when I mentioned you, he said some wild
things, and he practically trashed everything in the house.
"In the end, I could only control him with medicine to calm him down. Then I
would spend time with him everyday and endlessly communicate with him. At
the time, my husband stopped production to help me. We spent a lot of energy
to finally see him improve.
"That period of time, was a challenge for me, but for him, it was a nightmare.
"Though his condition has improved, it doesn't mean that he's fine now. He
looks normal during the day, but at night, he would never sleep at all. We've
taken him to the hospital, and to see my psychology teacher. We've used many
methods, but they haven't worked. Even if he got a little sleep, it would be
induced by medicine.
"It was during all those sleepless nights that I learned all about you from him.
"He used a lot of strength to force himself to forget about you, and yet he still
loved you so so deeply.
"You turned him into a hopeless lunatic.
"I put off all the work in my office and spent every night with him for two whole
months to help him accept the fact that he had already lost you."
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