Kapitel 18: day 1 of Trip ( I want die)

Answering the second point, JIHARA says """" I could not sleep due to the joy of seeing the moon again, I kept thinking about the coming day the whole night., I woke up the next day and had already done all the work, and I remember I wore the cleanest clothes to work at night. 'Cause I was hoping to see him again , I just wanted him to notice me too, so I wore the cleanest dress and reached the building at seven o'clock But this time there was no moon all his friends were , I put the mask back on because I didn't want to be seen by that bad friend of his. I shifted every item to his room. All his friends were still drinking. And around 1 o'clock in the night the moon came into our building he was very drunk , he looked very tired from his face , his eyes were red I thought he criedAs soon as he came, he went towards his room. , my heartbeat was fast He fell down wildly on the bed but suddenly he got a call from someone and he started talking on the call., I could not hear his voice because I was shifting out ofroom,.After a while, he walked out of the room with his faltering steps. , I was very sad thinking that maybe he was leaving, because I had come thinking that I was going to spend the whole night with him., but then I felt that I should follow him and I came out of the room on the pretext of bringing things from downstairs., then I saw that the moon had gone up towards the elevator ,I was surprised that he lives on this floor then why was he going upstairs?, I could not stop my steps And I took the lift to the top floor , going up I found out that Moon had gone to the roof of the building , he was drunk so I was very scared, I ran after him quickly, after going to the terrace it was found that he was still talking to someone on call. , but he was crying, he was screaming It looked like he was in a lot of pain I couldn't bear to see him in pain. I wanted to drink his tears , soak up his pain inside you, hide his pain ,I was silently listening to his words., but the next moment I lost my senses , because he is going to commit suicide by jumping from the roof., I ran and caught hold of his hand and pulled him towards me from the railing of the terrace. , he fell towards me with a jerk, I could not control him and I myself fell down but he was on top of me. , it was safe , but my head broke because it hit the ceiling directly , blood started coming out of my head For a moment I thought I was going to die But the moon was above me , I could feel his chest close to mine, his head was near my heart, I held him with both my arms as if he were a rare flower., he was trying to raise his head while drunk but he could not even raise his head , he was just saying .....i want to die .....I want to die .....I want to die .....I didn't even realize when I became unconscious after hearing his voice. ,