I felt depressed today, but I've been unhappy for two months. Since November, I've been feeling depressed.

I felt that I had depression today, but I had been unhappy for two months. Since November, I had clearly felt that my colleagues had started to alienate me and ostracize me. They didn't tell me anything and didn't ask me to participate in activities. This relationship had been brewing until recently, when I heard them talk, I got annoyed. I felt that they were bored to death and didn't want to go out with them. My work attitude was also bad and I had a bad temper. I realized that I was no longer interested in many things around me. I lived in my own world and felt that I was very good. Those who were not good to me were jealous of my talent or beauty. The reason why I became like this was because of a change in my relationship in November. The person who used to take care of me and accompany me every day couldn't see me often because of objective reasons, and there weren't many opportunities to communicate with me. It made me heartbroken. I washed my face in tears every night for two months. I was anorexia, blamed myself, and blamed the other party at the same time. I had all kinds of emotions. Therefore, when I met him, he complained all kinds of things. Now, he didn't want to talk to me. Yesterday, she suddenly had the thought of escaping from everything. She abandoned her work and her feelings and left this place for another quiet place. There was even a moment when I wanted to commit suicide. I wanted to torture myself to take revenge on him. I suddenly felt that I was so fragile. I was so dependent on him. Without him, my world would collapse. Recently, they were in a cold war and even had the idea of ending everything. Three years ago, I suffered from depression. After treatment, I got better and lasted until this year. Now, I can't do it anymore. It's too painful. I can't go to the person who cured my depression anymore because we're very familiar with each other now. I didn't get along well with my colleagues because I especially hated and despised them. They talked about small things all day long, and I didn't want to participate at all. I thought they were mediocre, ignorant, and superficial. I deeply hated them and didn't want to please them.